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muichiroslover · 3 years ago

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Heyo could I request a ban x reader

Where ban and y/n first started dating before elaine so when elaine got into the picture she was a little jealous of their relationship and would try and break them up. And so one day ban and y/n got into an argument, the next day y/n and all of her stuff was gone. Elaine thinking it was a perfect time to take ban tries to comfort him but all he can think about is y/n. So eventually he finds y/n and apologizes in which y/n forgives him.

HAPPY ENDINGG

(Srry If its 2 long u don't have to do it if u dont want 2) (also I do not hate elaine xD)

Hi hi!! Yes I love this idea I love me some angst with happy ending 👀 I hope this is to your liking butterscotch!! <33 enjoy (●’◡’●)ﾉ♥︎♥︎

(Sorry it’s a little late ☹︎)

Pairings: Ban x reader

Warnings: Mentions of blood and wounds (not bad)

Genre: Angst with happy ending

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You and ban had been a couple for as long as you could remember, at first it was kind of hard to approach him when you guys first met but when you guys had warmed up to each other you guys were absolutely inseparable

You guys did everything together and you were so well known your couple name around towns were “The bandit couple”

As you guys explored the world one night Ban brought up news about this drink that could give you immortality, using the sly line

“Then we can be together forever”

To which you laughed and hit him playfully, but he was entirely serious, you sighed and ended up agreeing to your adventurous boyfriends plan, if it wasn’t real at least you guys would have a fun time

So you guys began your journey to the fairy kings forest, when you guys had finally got to the tree you looked up and groaned

“That’s a huge tree, do we have to climb it?” You ask and he snorts as he already begins getting his hands and legs ready to climb

“You don’t have to, you can wait down here” he says smugly and you glare at the back of his head

“No I’m coming, I might as well see it through” you mutter annoyed to which he laughed

“That’s my girl” he says and you look away in embarrassment, feeling flustered at the comment which almost sent the blue haired man flying off the tree in amusement

As you guys climbed and finally made it to the top a girl, a little one at that looked at you both with a straight face as she puts her hand up and a huge wind blows you guys off

You scream in fear as you get blown far back and far above the ground, Ban grits and teeth and clicks his tongue as he grabs you as you guys start falling and takes the impact

You quickly got off of him and looked at him, tears almost in your eyes

“Oh my god! Ban! Ban I’m so sorry I didn’t mean for you to take the impact! Ban!! Ban-“ you frantically said to the man on the ground who’s eyes were closed

“If you keep calling my name out like that it’d be plain bullying if I didn’t wake up” he groans as he slowly sits up and you quickly hug him to which he chuckles and embraces you back

“Alright let’s try again” he says and your eyes widen slightly

“But ban-“ you begin and he just looks at you with his normal goofy smile you can never turn down, you sigh, deeply may I add and look at him

“Okay..I trust you” you say and he grins even wider as he grabs your hand and stands up as you guys started running towards the tree

The same thing happened a few times, it hurt, a lot but Ban never let you get too injured, always taking the impact of the fall even if you tried to fight with his grip in the air

The last time you guys got up there Ban grabbed his weapon and your eyes widen slightly thinking he was gonna attack the little girl

But he manipulated his staff and instead grabbed the cub with his weapon, You gasped as you two got quickly bounded by trees and the girl took the cup from Bans hand

The girl stands in front of you guys seemingly doing something then she lets us both go, Ban started explaining why you guys wanted immortality and those of such, You didn’t expect him to tell her his whole life’s story but

“Well shes too strong Y/n, let’s just go back” he says smiling at you as he holds out his hand, you smile lightly and nod as you grab it and you both head back down the tree

You guys were camping near the tree those days you were climbing it, you decided you’d stay another week since the fairy kings forest is actually quite pretty and you wanted to explore a bit before leaving since this opportunity may never come again

One night as you laid asleep in your sleeping bag you felt moving, you opened your eyes groggily to see your boyfriend quietly leaving the tent, you thought nothing of it, maybe he was going to pee or he was extra hungry or there was something dangerous nearby

Ignoring it you let yourself fall back into a deep slumber

But as the days and nights continued he kept sneaking out, you started getting suspicious so on the 4th night he snuck out you waited a little bit pretending you were sleeping and after a few minutes you slowly crept out of the tent

You looked around whispering your boyfriends name, this could be a huge misunderstanding after all

You went all around the forest and no sight of Ban

You went back to the tent and looked in, maybe you missed him?? But nope he wasn’t in there

You finally stopped in front of the tree and looked up, remembering the girl that resided there, logically speaking she was older then both of us since fairy’s live longer

“He didn’t” you whisper, you didn’t want to think, no you absolutely were wrong, must be seeing the wrong picture

Your boyfriend of years and hardships is not sneaking out at night to meet up with another girl, no it sounds absurd even thinking about it

‘I’ll just climb and check and I’ll be wrong, I’ll take the wind blow’ you think nodding your head reassuring yourself

You start climbing up the tree as quietly as possible, when you finally made it up and peaked up your mouth fell agape as you saw Ban and the girl chatting and laughing, all close

It surprised you so much that you lost grip on the tree and fell back, you rolled down the tree as if it was a hill, your limbs flying to and fro as you finally hit the bottom

You groaned quietly in pain

“What was that?” Ban says as he stops his conversation with Elaine hearing a soft thump

Elaine looks to the side

“ I didn’t hear anything?” She says and Ban shrugs as they continue to talk

You on the other hand shakily get up as you look at yourself, your arm was bleeding but you don’t know from where, your left ankle was sprained for sure, and your back was killing you it probably had a horrible bruise forming

A tear slipped out as you limped to the tent, you sat down as you grabbed bandages and started cleaning your wounds, the blood was coming from a gash just below your shoulder, probably from a sharp branch

You put a stick in your mouth as you took a deep breath, you grabbed some of Bans alcohol and poured it over the cut, you bit down harshly on the stick but no scream made it through, tears can’t say the same though

You spit out the stick as you breathed hard, every breath of air seeming like you haven’t had oxygen for a while, you take a bandage and wrap it around your arm securely

Usually you would make herbs for wounds and etc, but your hands were shaky, mind a daze and eyes blurry from tears

You wrapped up your sprained ankle and just let your back be in pain because there wasn’t much you could do about the pain back there

You sat silently in the tent waiting for your boyfriend to arrive, he did not arrive till the morning, about an hour and a half before you would usually wake up

When he opened the tent and saw you staring blankly at his empty sleeping bag he went to you and was about to touch your shoulder to ask you what was wrong but you jerked back

He was surprised as you looked at him, your eyes puffy, a huge sign you were crying

“Y/n what-“

“Where were you last night Ban?” You ask and he goes silent

“No in fact where were you the past 4 nights??” You ask and he sighs

“Y/n I just went out to explore and hunt, the foods not gonna come to us-“

You scoff, tears forming up, if he’s lying then is it true that he..

“You’re lying Ban, you’re lying to me” you grit out and he looks at you a little confused but mostly surprised

“What?”

“You were up there in that tree with that girl..” you say dangerously quiet and he sighs his head falling as he realizes he’s been caught and it looks totally wrong too

“Y/n..” he begins and you shake your head

“No no dont Y/n me, why did you lie and why were you sneaking out?!” You shout

“Y/n we were just talking I swear, I lied because I didn’t know how you would react-“

“HOW I WOULD REACT? HOW WOULD YOU REACT IF I WAS SNEAKING OFF LATE AT NIGHT AND MEETING UP WITH SOME GUY BAN?? HUH??!” You ask pushing him back but you wince as the wound near your shoulder moves

Ban notices this then notices the bandage on your arm and ankle

“Y/n what happened?” He asks quickly as he pulls your ankle into his palm to examine it, but you pull it back quickly

“You’re not even answering me, I-I can’t believe this, I can’t.” You say as you lay down in your sleeping bag, you were extremely tired from staying up the whole night already

You laid on the opposite side you usually lay on because of the wound on your other shoulder and thankfully it was the side not facing Ban

You guys didn’t speak for the whole day and when night came you woke up only to see Ban gone

“Y-You’re kidding” you whisper, you quickly get out, you run to the tree as you go up the route you began to remember with your mind at this point

You climbed up skillfully fast ignoring the roaring pain in both your ankle and shoulder, you peaked up and not to your surprise you see Ban and Elaine speaking under the oh so romantic fairy lights

With no sound you climbed back down, you walked to your tent and went in, grabbing your bag you grabbed your herbs, bandages, clothes and canned foods, leaving some for Ban even in your mood

You rolled up your sleeping bag and dig the dirt under as you grabbed your bag of coins, you and Ban always hid your money in case of any intruders, you guys were bandits after all

You take your money and put it in your bag as you get out the tent and leave

Ban returned back in the morning, he had asked Elaine what he should do to fix things and what a girl usually would like in this type of situation, you guys had never fought so bad to the point you didn’t speak the whole entire day

He was scared you were actually done with him, he had a few picked flowers in his hand and he took a deep breath as he opened the tent

But his eyes widen when he sees your stuff gone and your sleeping bag rolled up, he drops the flowers as he looks around frantically

“Y/N?? Y/N WHERE ARE YOU?!” He yelled, he ran everywhere around the forest looking for you, but you were no where in sight

By the time night fell he still couldn’t find you and it felt like his whole world was collapsing in front of him, he couldn’t think and he couldn’t even yell anymore bc he was sure he lost his voice by how loud and long he was screaming your name

He quickly wiped a tear that rolled down his cheek as he quickly climbed the tree, Elaine looked over at him worriedly

“You didn’t come at our usual time I was worried” she said and looks away blushing slightly

“She left Elaine! She left and I can’t find her anywhere” he says as he falls onto his knees and the tears finally come out

“She left me Elaine I-“ he says hoarsely

Elaine frowns sadly as she goes over and hugs him

“Well Ban...maybe she wasn’t the right one..there’s other people who can make you happy” she says

“Her injuries, she had bandages on her right arm and an injury on her ankle as well! She can get really hurt out there I have to find her” he cried

“Ban she left you, maybe it’s time to move on” Elaine says hintfully and lets go of Ban as she flies to the cup, she gives it to Ban and smiles at him

“Really?” He asks and she nods blushing a bit, he drank it slowly and when Elaine wasn’t looking he poured some inside of a glass bottle

“Ban I like-“ Elaine begins but Ban gets up

“I’m sorry Elaine I think this is the last time you’ll be seeing me, I checked every inch of the forest last night so that means Y/n has left the forest, I’m gonna be leaving as soon as I make it to the tent and get my stuff” he says to the girl who’s face falls in despair

“W-What wait but Ban she-“ she began

“She left? She had a good reason, if I was in her position I’d be upset too I can’t blame her” he says running a hand through his hair

“B-BUT SHE-SHE” Elaine tries to plead but stops when she sees Ban smile at her

“No matter what she did or does, she’s the only one my heart races for, in life or in death Y/n is my one true love so...wherever she goes I’ll chase her” he says and with that he jumps off the tree

Elaine falls to her knees as she watches the spot Ban once stood in, her head falling down as tears fell on to the tree

Ban had gotten to the tent and began packing all his stuff he got his money bag from under his sleeping , though he wonders where you hid yours and leaves

He travels for towns and towns looking for you, he had finally found you but much to his dismay you got captured since you were injured and were in a pretty tight situation as you were on death row

He watched as you and other prison mates were in a yard just doing your own things, you were laying on a bench staring at the sky

“Pssst”

You look up quickly and look around not seeing anyone, you were about to lay back down

“Pssst Y/n!”

You look around again noticing the familiar voice

“I must be going crazy” you mutter as you hold your forehead

“You’re not! Look over here!”

You slowly look to the side of the fence you were near and your eyes slowly landed on a bush, soon blue hair popped up from behind the bush and Ban gave you that grin of his

“Ban!” You say, a smile on your face, but you quickly replace it by a scowl and look away from him

He smiles slightly at that

“Y/n come on look at me” he whispers and you begrudgingly look over at him and he smiles, causing you to get flustered and your scowl to shake trying not to smile

“What are you doing here, you better hurry up and escape before they catch you too” you whisper not looking at him, instead watching the guards

He laughs

“As if I would leave you in a jail cell, come on let’s go” he says and you look at him stupidly

“Let’s go? No thanks death row isn’t that bad” you say coldly and he sighs

“Fine, guess we have to do this the hard way” he says shrugging

“HEY GUARDS” He shouts and your eyes widen as you sit up and block him with your body as the guards and inmates look at you

“UHH YEAH GUARDS, UHM YOUR ZIPPERS DOWN” you say and cringe deeply when the guards both look down and one coughs as he zips up his zipper, the inmates laughing

When everything died down you looked at Ban deadly

“Are you crazy?” You whisper

“Crazy for you”

Your mouth closes as you try to not blush but it’s inevitable as your brows unfurrow and a small smile takes over

“There’s that smile I love” he says and you roll your eyes as you huff slightly

“You better explain, I’m not giving you another chance so don’t you lie to me” you say and he nods quickly like a dog, you can basically see the tail behind him wagging

“Now step back babe, you’re boyfriends here to save you” he says smugly and you roll your eyes as you back up

He takes out his staff and in a swift motion breaks the fence, the guards all look over

“HEY” one shouts and you gasp as Ban quickly scoops you up and starts running

“It’s okay! I’ll take this bandit off your hands!” He shouts amused as he runs, he runs into a forest and does many turns eventually losing the guards who had to return back before any other inmates escaped

He puts you down lightly and you cross your arms to which he snorts

“I can run you know” you say and he shakes his head as he leans down and takes out a jar of green stuff

“They’re not as good as yours but they should do” he says and he gently takes your leg as he pulls up the inmate suit and sees your swollen ankle

“Tch stupid guards didn’t even treat it” he mutters as he takes some of the green cream and slowly and gently rubs it over your ankle

You can’t lie this felt really good but

“The first night I went up to try to plead for the youth drink” he says and you look at him

“The second night I went up to try and bribe for the youth drink”

“The third night I spoke to her, I tried to get to know her so she can see we have no bad intentions but one night wasn’t enough”

“The 4th night she had decent trust in me, so we continued talking”

He sighed as he started wrapping the bandage around your ankle softly, you don’t think you’ve ever seen Ban this gentle

“And the 5th night?” You ask and he looks to the side, you noticed a slight blush

“The 5th night I asked advice on what I should do to make you forgive me..” he mutters and your mouth falls agape slightly, it slowly forms into a small smile

“I’m sorry for not letting you explain..” you say and he shakes his head

“No, I can see how this looked from your perspective” he says as he rolls up your sleeves and switches the old bloodied bandages on your arm

You chuckle softly

“So I guess we can’t be together forever” you say sighing and as he rubs the herb cream on your bruised back he raises his eyebrow and pulls out a glass bottle with pink liquid

“Sorry but you’re not escaping me so easily” he says and you gasp as you grab the bottle and look at it

“This is really it??” You say looking back at him and he nods proudly

You slowly open it and drink it, but you didn’t feel that different

“Did it work?” You ask and he shrugs to which you deadpan

That day you both held hand as you jumped off a cliff, when you landed you guys sat up as you laughed and high fived, it worked

After a few months both you and Ban were caught purposely cause life began to get boring, you both sat in the same cell, after 33 executions you both are still alive in confinement

“I win” you say as you cross an all three X’s on the tic tac toe you made on the dirt in the ground

“You’re cheating” Ban replies and you laugh

Soon the door blows open and you two looked over to see a short man with blonde hair, you both smiled as Meliodas smiled back at you two

“Glad to see you two are still lovebirds”

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himboholhorse-moving · 5 years ago

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1 2 4 7 8 9 13 18 20 26 27 29 30 32 39 40 41 43/44 45 46 49 51 53 55 56 57 59 63 65 that is. so many dghsdghsdgv I'm sorry I just see an ask meme and go crazy aaaa go stupid aaaa. You can just answer whichever u like from those!! also 69(nice): you seem rly nice and funny from your 🅱️osts and I appreciate u... I hope you can find better irl friends who aren't trash

HDSKFJKS I completely understand but lucky for u I LOVE to talk !!

1) How are you?

Pretty good, actually!! Which is a nice change of pace. I went to Walmart with some friends yesterday and got a few things, baked a family recipe that my friends LOVE, and finally did my laundry (it’s been a couple weeks we love depression and executive dysfunction dfhkjsfd). I went to Cracker Barrel with some friends and earlier and played a 4-way game of Tetris after. :3c

2) Post a picture of yourself.

Here you go !!

4) What is your entire name?

Sierra Alexis and my last name is something constantly misspelled so I’ll give you the name of a historical figure whose name is a letter off from mine: George B. McClellan, to whom I may or may not be related because last name variations are fuckin’ WEIRD.

7) Your zodiac/horoscope and if you think it fits your personality.

I’m a Capricorn sun and moon, and Libra rising !! And from what I’ve read on Twitter from various astrologers, like Milkstrology, I LOVE her, I’d say it’s pretty accurate with my personality!! I like to say Capricorn’s aren’t cold bitches but, I Have A Tendency To Be One !!

8) What did you do on your last birthday?

God what DID I do on my last birthday… it was in January, so like, I SHOULD remember… OH I went to IHOP with my friends !! I share a birthday with another friend and I got a JoJo notebook and something called a Fuggler! They’re stuffed animals more or less but designed to be “ugly.” I got one that looks like Philadelphia Flyers mascot Gritty because I LOVE Gritty… he’s so fun and funky.

9) What is one thing you’d like to accomplish before your next birthday?

Get all my requests in my inbox over on my writing blog done KJHFDJKSF it’s been a few months and life has been. Hectic to say the least.

13) If you could change your eye color, would you?

There’s so much weird as hell brown-eye-phobia so like… I think blue eyes would be pretty neat. OR PURPLE… give me some unnatural eye colors pls...

18) Do you have any tattoos?

Not yet!! I’m going to get one the next time I go back home for break. :3c And I have a few ideas for other ones!! I wanna get a big-ass “Dragon Age: Origins” tattoo that’s the dragon on the cover on my thigh. I also wanna get a DA2 and “Inquisition” tattoo… and the Joestar birthmark… too many ideas…

20) Left or right handed?

Right-handed !! I could have been left-handed or ambidextrous if I broke my arm AFTER I started kindergarten, but alas that was before.

26) Something you are working on right now:

This !! But also the script for my next podcast episode that I record on uhhh Monday I think. Should probably figure that one out dsjfjhsf

27) Do you have any “rules” about food?

I answered that in the last ask !!

29) What would you say is your best quality?

I also answered this in the last ask !!

30) What do you think you’re really good at?

Writing, I’d say! And memorizing trivia about the stuff I’m super into. If it’s stuff pertaining to “M*A*S*H” or old movies or TV shows or actors or specific historical events, I will know that shit FOR LIFE. Don’t ask me to do math pls thank u

32) What talent do you wish you’d been born with?

I wish I was able to do stuff with music. That was never really in my blood, despite all the music classes they make you take in elementary school. I just never learned how to memorize or read sheet music. :/ I would have loved to play violin, tho… my friend plays and she says I would have been a good cellist.

39) Do you sleep with a stuffed toy?

YES… have for years. I still have my Care Bear from when I was 5, Gritty as mentioned above, a plush of my school’s mascot, and a little Fugo !! He’s so tiny.

40) What do you think about the most?

Everything and constantly and all at once. But the past really because I can never let stuff go and even the small things I mess up on haunt me forever… Wish that wasn’t the case but it is !!

41) Share two habits:

Biting my nails and having a very specific routine in which I get ready when I wake up. Like, I’ve gotta go brush my hair before I put my important cards in my left pocket, then put on my silver bracelet, then my beaded bracelet, then my earbuds in my right pocket, then put my earrings in. I HAVE to do it in that order…

And other oddities that include, like, if I need to go around something I HAVE to follow the urge to go one way and not the other, lest I feel the need to go back and fix it. And then which foot goes first before I reach a crack in the sidewalk, or up or down a curb, etc.

43) What are your career goals?

If I can just make people happy or get some kind of joy out of the things I do, I’d call that enough. :)

44) What is your ideal career?

Mmm, either a film historian or a film professor !! Preferably at the college I’m at right now but wherever the wind takes me, I’ll go! Or a Twitch streamer or YouTuber, it really depends on my mood jdhfjskf

45) Is your life anything like it was two years ago?

It was pretty much the same !! Freshman year was pretty lively, I didn’t have a job on campus yet though, or my podcast. Everything else is basically the same!

46) Do you replay things that have happened in your head?

CONSTANTLY… good or bad it’ll play back over and over and over again.

49) Do you have any phobias?

HOO BOY, DO I… fear of heights; fear of insects/bugs/arachnids/bees/wasps; I have a strong dislike of the number 13 but I don’t know if it’s a phobia, I just. REALLY hate it; the unknown, more or less what lurks somewhere beyond where I can see. Not so much a fear of the dark with that one, just what could BE in it.

51) Are you allergic to anything? If so, what?

I answered this in my last ask, as well!

53) Ever come close to death?

Two or three times, maybe? Two of them involved what’s called a laryngospasm, typically it can happen when your sick, which is what happened to me both times. Basically your throat just closes up on your for a hot minute and you can’t breathe. The first time I genuinely thought I was going to die (and my dad still sent me to school that day… HOE), the second time I was also sick and was losing/had lost my voice DURING A JOB RETREAT and it happened in the middle of the night so that was funny sitting there gasping for breath in the pitch dark.

At the FIRST retreat I went on for that job, you had to take pictures as part of a scavenger hunt, and the place used to be an old military fort, so there were still the old bunkers there. We had to take one on top of it and I was taking the picture, and it’s a wide shot so I go to take a step back but before I do I look behind me. If I hadn’t I would have fallen a good 10-15 feet down onto solid Civil War-era bunker concrete. I’d consider that being a “close to death” moment because I really could have died!

55) A random fact about yourself:

I have a half-brother !! My sis and I finally found him after her 23andMe results came back (which she decided to do despite us being like THE GOVERNMENT WILL COLLECT OUR DATA) and we didn’t think our mom would be happy she found him but she was !! My sis might reach out and contact him, she just wanted our mom’s permission first to do it.

56) What are three things most people don’t know about you?

Well, that I have a half-brother. I don’t mention it a lot. Aside from y’all on here and my sister, most everyone else doesn’t know I’m nonbinary! Everyone else knows I’m bi though lmao. And that there were times I’d stretch or bend the truth or lie about something just to impress someone else. It’s a… Bad Habit. Another thing is that most people don’t know I like coffee? Like I need to put a shit ton of creamer in with it because I’m a Bitch, but yeah.

57) An unknown fact about your life:

I wouldn’t call this an “unknown” fact but I’d used to go to work with my dad every now and again when he worked at the Home Depot and he was assistant manager. I’d either chill in the back room which was an office he shared with two other guys, or walk around the store with him. I had my own apron, too, which was my name with “Mini Mac” next to it, “Mac” being my dad’s nickname and something easier to say than my last name. I actually helped a few customers out so I wonder if I should have gotten paid for that despite being like, ages 9-13 when I’d go jshfkjd

And I guess I technically tested video games as a kid? Basically, when my dad was stationed at Fort Knox, they’d get demos of video games that hadn’t come out yet to test I suppose? and I still have a few somewhere. He’d hand them off to me and I’d play them so there’s that.

59) Five weird things that you like:

Eating globs of wasabi for no reason.

Scaring my friends also for no reason.

I wouldn’t say using cotton swabs to get wax out of your ears because it feels good is weird, just more medically inadvisable if anything.

When I was younger I’d like to floss really hard because the slight pain from it felt good. Young me was a #Freaque KJHDFJJDHF

I don’t know if being fond of alphabetizing and reorganizing things is considered weird but I LOVE doing that.

63) A quote you try to live by:

“It matters not how strait the gate, / How charged with punishments the scroll; / I am the master of my fate: / I am the captain of my soul.” It’s from the poem “Invictus” and the last two lines are what I’m getting tattooed !!

65) Weird things you do when you’re alone:

Practice the “Lucky Star” dance. I GOT THE LYRICS DOWN… JUST NEED TO DO THE DANCE NOW…

69) Leave me a compliment:

“you seem rly nice and funny from your 🅱️osts and I appreciate u... I hope you can find better irl friends who aren't trash”

Anon pls 🥺 I do my best to be nice but my friend really do test me sometimes... my feelings bounce back n forth like if they do something my feelings can switch to angry or like, hate, and then if they do something nice I’ll like them again. It sucks but ! I just take it one day at a time. Anon I care for u 💜💜💜

#anonymous #asks #ask games #I love u anon 💜 thank u for letting me just Talk jdhsksjf #Anonymous

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jack-kellys · 6 years ago

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HEY it’s me with another installment of the “wait... ??!! !?” AU!

previous chapters: 1 (x) 2 (x) and 3 (x)

LAST time on TU,N, race revealed what little he could of his past, and al was sucked more extremely if you will into race’s...plan. scheme. something. who knows. it’s me I know heheh

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words: 2500

warnings: cursing, NSFW jokes, mush (YEAH HE’S HERE) is a med student if that helps

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Four

“How do you know he ain’t just a hookup?”

Al rolled his eyes at Mush’s question. They’d just finished their last class of the day, Albert having told him all about Race. Or, well, all that he could without mentioning the tiny part where he was born in 1880 and yet still here.

“It’s more than a feeling this time, okay?” Albert sighed, giving Mush a nudge. “I’m serious.”

“Yeah, but guess what you said last time? The same thing. And the time before that? Also the same thing,” Mush said, his knowing look causing Al to deflate slightly. “Look, I just want you to be careful this time, okay? I know you.”

“Fuck off, Meyers,” Albert said, no real heat behind it. “You knew with Blink, right?”

“And you know that Blink is god-tier to any loser you could pick up, Red,” Mush smirked, letting out a pained laugh when Al necked him at the nickname.

“Just watch, okay? Look. I have a date with him tonight, like a real one—a dinner thing. That confirms that he ain’t just a hookup, right? I made it clear what I wanted, he made it clear what he wanted,” Al shrugged, then scoffed at himself. “That’s already one step ahead of past me.”

Mush shook his head with a sad smile. “You are just so, so lovesick, about everyone, all the time. It’s really...sad,” he said, smile still present.

“I’m also so, so angry with you, all the time,” Al growled, “because you suck.”

“Ah, but you love me.” Mush pat Albert’s shoulder lightly, raising his eyebrows.

“....Yeah, asshole,” Al muttered. Mush laughed, hugging his arm around Albert until they had to part ways.

“In all seriousness, dude,” Mush said, stopping them at the corner. He placed both hands on Al’s shoulders, looking him in the eyes. “No more bruises, literal or metaphorical. Okay?”

“Okay, sheesh,” Al chuckled, then cleared his throat as Mush’s rather dark expression remained. “Seriously. No more, I swear.”

Mush’s face brightened instantly. “Great! Have fun tonight, man!” He waved as he started walking up the street.

“You’re really not gonna graduate with that fucked up bedside manner, doc,” Al called up to him. When Mush turned back around to flip him off, he took that as his cue to leave. He had to pick up Race in an hour anyway.

•••

“It’s good to know you own more than sweatshirts and flannels, DaSilva. I’m proud, really,” Race teased, leaning on his door frame after he’d opened the door for Al.

Albert gaped at him a second, then scoffed with a slight smile. “I clean up nice for ya, and I get a damn joke. Okay, date cancelled, flannel will be reinstated shortly.”

“No!” Race whined, latching himself to Al’s arm. “No, you look really cute, I promise. Let’s go eat, c’mon.”

“Thank you,” Al said pointedly, glancing over Race and managing to keep his heart from skipping a beat at the mere sight of him. “You look good too, by the way, in case you weren’t sure.”

Race whapped his arm as they walked out of the complex. “Oh thanks,” he snorted, grinning. “Now, this is my favorite italian restaurant in the city, and I’m big-time italian. So get your mouth ready for some good food.”

“You have no idea how many jokes just went through my head, oh my god, it’s blinding,” Albert cringed.

“Oh come on, I gave you ‘italian’ and ‘mouth’ in the same sentence for a reason. Shoot,” Race encouraged, a mischievous look gracing his face.

“Don’t kill me,” Al prefaced.

“You of all people should know I love dirty talk,” Race said, bouncing his eyebrows as Albert rolled his eyes, blushing.

“Okay, okay, here’s the first one I thought of: my mouth has already had my favorite italian.”

Race smiled sarcastically. “Aww, I’m your favorite.”

“Then there’s also: my mouth is always ready for my favorite Italian.”

“Yeah, it really is,” Race smirked, pecking Albert on the lips.

Albert smiled gently, lacing his hand with Race’s the rest of the way to the restaurant, not missing the sentimental glance Race sent towards their hands.

Race’s excitement only seemed to grow as they finally stepped inside the place. Chatter was heard from every table, a low buzz of enjoyment coming from every inch of the room. It was smaller in size than Albert expected, finding himself smiling at how homey it was.

“This is...really nice,” Albert hummed as a waiter led them to a two-person table.

“Well, sure,” Race shrugged, sitting himself opposite Al with a lopsided smile on his face. “It’s nothin’ fancy, but I really like it.”

“It’s nice for that exact reason, Racer. It’s very you, like, you would like this place.” Albert rolled his eyes fondly, glancing around the atmosphere. A hole in the wall italian place that seemed hipster but was definitely old as hell. Definitely Race.

The night wore on slowly, Albert thankful for every minute. Race seemed to be having a great time—at least, he was smiling a lot at dumb shit Al or himself said. His blue eyes would crinkle up when he laughed, a grin splitting his lips every time, no matter how big or small the smile was. He’d shake his head slightly, too, and lean back in his chair with the most perfectly carefree expression Albert had ever seen. He could watch Race laugh for a lifetime, he decided against his better judgement.

“So, Albie,” Race said, leaning forward again and placing his chin on his hand, “lemme know more about you besides the fact that you’re funny as fuck, oh my god.”

“I’m moderately amusing, yeah,” Al shrugged, half-smiling when Race gave him a scoff, then gesturing for Al to continue.

“Well you already know I’m a design major, and I like building stuff—oh, I build sets for shows my school does. That’s kinda cool.”

“That’s super cool, correction,” Race gasped, eyes bugging slightly. “Build or design, too?”

“I help design sometimes, yeah. Guy named Jack Kelly usually is the main designer. He’s really got an eye for connecting design to whatever the show’s content is. I jus’ like building the shit mostly.” Al smiled at the thought of how late Jack was probably keeping himself up that night—they were just starting on a straight play and Albert’s phone had already buzzed with more than a few texts from him, probably all with vague ideas in caps lock.

“Jeez, that must be so amazing. I love shows, holy shit, like I’m such a bootleg bitch,” Race giggled, Albert laughing at the term Race had used for himself.

“‘Bootleg bitch’,” Al sighed. “You would be. Thing is, I’m not super into shows themselves..? Haven’t found one that I really felt yet.”

“What?” Race leaned back again, face screwed up in a baffled expression. “God, every show I watch hits me in the like, first ten minutes.”

“I only know the ones I’ve done, so maybe that’s why. But I have done them since high school, so,” Al shrugged, apologetic. “Dunno, hun.”

“Then I’ll get you into one!” Race’s expression seemed to brighten at the thought, Albert blushing at how adorable he looked. “I mean. Well, I’ll just have to find one for you.”

“Guess you will, bootleg bitch,” Al snorted as Race tried to hit him from across their small table.

“Oh, shut up! I’ve lived in New York longer than literally anyone on the planet, I can’t not be into shows,” Race huffed.

“You should see mine when it’s up, then,” Albert said.

Race seemed to stiffen, and Al mentally slapped himself. That was so forward, at least two months into the future. He didn’t even know if this relationship would last more than a week, let alone two entire months. It didn’t seem like a long time, but it was for Al.

Albert tore his gaze away from the table to meet Race’s eyes again. A sad, but knowing smile was on his face.

“I would really love to, Albie,” he said softly.

“Really?” Albert asked, not truly believing Race. He probably just felt bad for him.

“Really. I would really, really like to,” Race nodded, reaching his hand over the table to hold Al’s.

Albert smiled at their hands together, tan and pale intermingling into one mixed shape. Maybe there was hope for him yet in the relationship department.

•••

Going back to Race’s was an entire other reward, consisting of more talking with bits of making out swirled in between, Race’s lips still able to make his brain short-circuit every time they kissed.

Race had just pushed Albert down onto the couch, Al’s hands gripping at Race’s hips as the blond’s hand travelled up under Al’s shirt. Race slowed himself a bit, moving his lips to lazily kiss at Albert’s neck and lowering himself on top of him.

“That date was really nice, Tony,” Albert murmured, arching himself slightly up towards Race’s mouth. “Real cute, real...real.”

“What’s that mean?” Race popped his head, Al having to raise his eyes to meet his gaze. He didn’t really want to though, biting his lip slightly in hesitation as he realized what he had said.

“I...um,” Al huffed out a slight laugh, attempting to lighten the air that suddenly felt dense. “It’s not like I haven’t been out to dinner with a partner before or anything. ‘Cause I have. Just...not like that.”

“Al, like what?” Race pressed, tired smile slipping off his face.

Albert shrugged, pushing himself up straighter. “I dunno. Been a while since I left a date like that feeling good, y’know? I don’t normally get lucky in this department—the, uh, relationship kind.” Heart beating faster, he averted his gaze further as Race’s eyes only saddened.

Relationships had always been a taboo topic for Albert, family ties included. His mother had died in his youth, a hit and run, and Al’s dad had lost himself in the grief too far, eventually turning to taking it out in his children. All three got out of the house eventually, the youngest living with the oldest when Al went to college.

And even during his wreckage of his family, romantic relations weren’t much better. Girlfriends would call him too guarded, not emotionally present and yell at him; boyfriends would call him weak, say he needed to be stronger, push him around and mock him. He couldn’t win. He had never won.

“And then...shit, this is gonna sound cheesy, but then I met you,” Albert laughed quietly after recounting a few choice pieces of his history. “You actually respect me for..me.”

Race’s hands ghosted over his mouth to mask his shock. “Albert,” he breathed with watery voice and eyes, “I had no idea. I’m so sorry, you don’t know the half of it, oh my god…”

“Race, it’s okay, really,” Al smiled, reaching out to brush his thumb over his cheek. “It ain’t your fault.”

Race seemed to come back to himself. “Yeah. Yeah, you just really don’t deserve this—that. I’m sorry you had to go through that, love,” he said, folding Albert into a hug. “I...I’m here now. Catch your break, hun.”

“Thanks,” Albert sighed, pushing his head into the crook of Race’s neck. He chuckled lightly. “You’re doing real wonders for me, y’know.”

Albert felt Race’s grip tighten around him before one of his hands started rubbing methodically up and down his back, up and down, up and down, up and down…

“I think I’m slippin’ into a food coma from all that Italian and feelings,” Albert yawned, snuggling further into Race and hearing him laugh softly.

“Okay baby, let’s go sleep. It’s late anyway, and that was a lotta pasta,” Race admitted, yawning as well. His hand kept rhythmically moving up and down Albert’s back, making his eyelids even harder to keep open, dimly feeling his grip on Race losen.

“What’re y’doin’ to me?” Al murmured as Race stood them up, hand not leaving the redhead’s back. “Y’got...magic hands.”

Race laughed again, this time with a slight nervous lilt that Albert would have caught if his head wasn’t suddenly so bleary.

“Yeah, that ain’t the first time you’ve said that to me, sweetie,” Race whispered in Al’s ear with a giggle, Albert blushing. He leaned up to kiss Race, wobbly knees be damned. Warmth like hot tea spreading through his body as Race reciprocated his affections, lips moving against lips.

After a few hazy moments, Albert pulled away. “Think I’m in love w’ you, Racey,” he mumbled, eyes still closed. “You’re absolutely perfect.”

“You’re tired,” Race said like he was deciding the fact, although Albert could picture his small smile anyway. A new layer of exhaustion laid itself over him like a heavy blanket, making him yawn again.

“Yeahhh,” Albert sighed, leaning heavier into Race’s arms as they fell onto his bed. “ I am.”

Albert felt Race curl around him after the covers were pulled up, arms wrapping around his stomach, continuing to rub. Al hummed his approval, cuddling sleepily into the embrace more than he’d admit.

“Goodnight, love,” Race whispered, almost hesitant, but Al could hear the truth behind it. He felt Race kiss the back of his neck gently.

“G’nigh’, Race,” Al sighed lightly, eyes closing again as his brain quickly drifted off. In his dreams, he relived the only perfect date he’d ever had. Wait till he told Mush—no bruises.

•••

Race felt a little bad for sending Albert into sleep like that. Technically against his will, too, although it was late and pretty appropriate.

But he needed to think.

He had never wanted to stall before Al happened. It was strange, wanting to stay with someone, and not just out of fear of hurting them later. He was pretty sure he loved Albert, too, and it was terrifying after decades of not feeling that way about anyone.

It wasn’t only terrifying, he supposed. It was definitely freeing, which was new, and he couldn’t help but absolutely love it. After believing to love was to be trapped (which he technically was), for what felt like forever, it was exciting and invigorating to spring out of the box he felt he’d been kept in for so long. It was wonderful, it was fun, Albert was wonderful, Albert was fun, and...Race didn’t want it to end.

And that was not allowed.

Race pressed himself closer to Albert, as if that could protect him from the chain of events that had started the moment they had made eye contact. Maybe Race could stall, at least a few more weeks. Albert deserved the love Race was more than willing to give him, especially after the kinds of relationships Al had said he’d been in before this one. He wanted to be more than that for him, rather than become another piece of Albert’s broken past. He wanted Albert more than anyone who had come before him, and Al seemed to want him back. Even if Race knew much of Albert’s feelings were orchestrated, there were lots of parts that were real: his humor, his thoughtfulness, his protectiveness were all there. And at least part of his love just had to be real. Race was powerful in that area, sure, that was his whole thing, but there were some things he couldn’t fake.

And, he decided, those things were worth stalling for.

Albert did probably love him. And he loved Albert, whether he could or not. He’d stall until Hell bit at his heels.

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this was kind of a filler chapter, but I hope it made it a little more clear with how things stand ;)

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My notes cause I don't need them anymore (not a hail Mary attempt)

To the girl I've spent countless hours and days with I still love you more than life itself even though I may not need you i want you in my life your cute little smile when you fuck something up or when you can't reach something and you need my help your laugh and smile is euphoric and your character as a whole is amazing i love spending every waking moment with you you have been so helpful and kind to me hell you got me through many tough times and I'm sorry I am so inactive and don't like going out much I'll try to work on that but i just wnant to hold you in my arms forever and keep you close to me and safe you are absolutely drop dead gorgeous you will make a wonderful mother one day to our children or otherwise and I envy whoever you end up choosing if it's not me there's a couple of things i want to do again with you like another concert where it feels like just you and me or another round at the fair itd be wonderful i love you Rebekah so much I hope you know that and I miss you a lot too its 2 am so im gonna go to sleep goodnight i promise if i have anymore to say ill come back and add on sleep well my beautiful angel <3 funny thing is im typing this to make myself feel better like im talking to you even though you probably won't ever see this i pray that you will find what you need in life you mean so much to me i told my new coworker about you and how gorgeous and smart you are i really wish i could just tell you all of this but you want me to stay away i really hope we find our happily ever after whether it be together or apart but you will always be so many of my firsts and so many of my fondest memories <3 today I told my new coworker how proud I was of you getting your car and how you bought it yourself i really miss hugging you and cuddling you and seeing your gorgeous ass self you are really amazing and i love you so much I'd die/take a bullet for you in a heartbeat but today i really came to a realization you probably won't like to hear if you get back together with me i realized that even though im a little chubby and should really work out more i am the whole package I will be a great husband and have a great future and whomever decides to come along for that ride would really enjoy it i feel so if you weren't to come back you're missing out on a guaranteed great husband and great future which yes i know confidence much maybe almost downright cocky but I'm happy with what the future holds for me and whomever decides to come with me and if I've said it once I've said it a thousand times i wish it could be you i really do cause despite my being scared of you potentially cheating I have faith and deep down i know you won't cause you are honest and real with me (unless you weren't in which case awwwkwaaarrrdd) but yeah you'd be a great mother and whoever you marry will be lucky and happy they have you and same thing for me :) you know the funniest thing anytime i text anyone and so ok i love you too your name pops up first in my next word choice box cause that's what I did i loved you hell i definitely still do and for some reason if you asked me to marry you there would be no hesitation no i need time to think just one word yes cause that's who i am and that's how head over heels i am for you i want to hug you bad hell I'd give away my paycheck to fucking see and talk to you again and make you fall in love all over again you did something no one and nothing could do you made me truly happy like true true happiness i love you so much Rebekah sleep well baby girl I hope you have a fantastic day tomorrow you are the bestest ever forever <3 lol today was my first ever college football tailgate with my church college group in Greenville today was also one of those days I was sad but i wasn't at first i was fine just felt a little out of place but quickly threw myself in and i got away from everyone for a bit and checked snapchat and saw that you finally got your tattoo and I was so happy for you but sad at the same time cause I wanted to be with you maybe get one with you but sadly i missed that milestone

Im sorry for missing your first tattoo I wish i couldve been there for you and with you im so proud of you cause your tattoo couldn't be truer you are coming from nothing and making big strides that's a big accomplishment I love you hell maybe I'll get a tattoo soon you never know i saw the flirting posts that i "liked" so i unfollowed you on everything cause it hurt so much i like instantly started crying and what do they have i don't you are killing me it broke me all over again i did everything I could to make you happy i tried so hard and it feels like you're really not fighting or trying to better yourself it feels like you just want to get with someone else cause I wasn't enough for you my efforts meant nothing today a Sunday night i was with my small group and you "accidentally sent me a video of you showing off your new tattoo the day or so after i removed you from all social media since i found out unfriending doesn't make me disappear on your end so i blocked you sorry but i have to thank you for understanding and being respectful so recently I've really been going after God and it came to my attention that i was wanting you to be something you can't be and weren't designed to be aka i wanted you to satisfy me completely which is impossible only God can do that also i lusted after you so much even though i had so much love for you aswell but my lust being me using you for my benefit aka my happiness and stuff was wrong i should've been more loving aka sacrificial of myself to benefit or help you and I'm so very sorry about that i wish i couldve been a better leader for you sadly for right now at least it seems i am too late hey i just wanted to say even if we don't get back together I'm really glad i met you you were a wonderful first also you'd be proud of me i was gogogo for 17/18 hours from 4:50am to 9:53pm thats kinda insane for me lol I'm so happy today like i feel hella blessed and loved and it's not necessarily from a person i just feel so in touch with God rn i know ur probably like smh but for real im like on fire its awesome but i just wanted to let you know even though you might never see this and if you do its been a hot minute lol but it's not to hurt you it's to show you i guess my self improvement slash progression of life in general i suppose also just wanted you to know but im sure u already do you are a really beautiful woman and I am saying that cause i can appreciate a beautiful woman you don't have priority anymore but i just wanted to let you know that god bless that was hard to explain but even that is obscure IM NOT HITTING ON YOU IM JUST APPRECIATING GOD'S CRAFTSMANSHIP BAM there we go ok so just looked at pictures of us on my phone and hot damn you fine lol (still appreciating the craftsmanship) hey its been a bit i went on a retreat with fuse and it was amazing i met a lot of guys and girls and am continuing to talk with some of the girls but the more i talk with them the more i miss talking with you i really wish we could at least be friends again but i guess not :( I'm glad I met you Rebekah you were a fantastic first girlfriend I just want you to know im not mad with you i respect your decision wholeheartedly you were great and hell I'll say it I miss you you were really fun to hang with i wish to tell you this but alas I'm here and you're nowhere to be seen in my life and I can almost guarantee you're not as affected and definitely not to the degree I am (it's not so bad for you you have to journal your experience of life without me) part of my heart is with you and always will be because the sex we had same thing with you part of your heart will always be with me and im sorry for that today i thought about you and when you told me that you imagined us sitting on the porch in rocking chairs and it kinda made me think and i was like you probably gonna come back and I hope you do but if you don't that's highly unfortunate it's felt like months since we saw eachother last but it's only been like 1 and a half longest month of my life tbh

Its 9/23/19 I'm gonna talk to your mom tomorrow after i get off work to check up on how everyone is doing you will probably hear a little or everything that's going on with me it may not attract you in fact it's very possible it'll repel you but hey it really doesn't matter you're an awesome girl and I'm a pretty cool dude lol if you decide to go separate ways that is your choice and I'll respect it even if it saddens me because I'm moving forward which is something else I never thought I'd be where i am today this early but I hope you you do come back you did make my life happier but now I'm happy even without you which is awesome I swear to never rely on you for my happiness I will look more towards the Lord and walk towards him with you by my side and no more big mistakes oh btw I talked with your mom and I'm glad I did your mom is a good mom I really miss you and your family and I keep praying for you guys and for clarity of who I'm meant to be with or if im not supposed to be with you at all and last night I dreamed about you so I think that was God telling me i need to be with you but I don't know I want to be with you don't het me wrong but I don't want to misinterpret my dreams it's now 9/27/19 and it hurt me to hear you were dating someone tbh but I'm glad you are getting out there and I'm happy for you regarding how well you are doing at church what I don't think is good is that you're dating someone that doesn't know the lord he has someone for you that knows and loves him thus you shouldn't be in that relationship in my opinion but as i said I just want the best for you

" we do bible shit"

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New World Pt.1 EP Release Party at Congruent Space in Chicago, IL, USA on June 9th, 2017

Here comes one of my famous long ass, very in depth Tumblr posts and stories. This time, I am going into the depths of the experience, emotions, and thoughts of this past weekend- when I flew out for the New World Pt.1 EP Release Party at Congruent Space in Chicago, IL, USA on June 9th, 2017

It was also Spring Awakening Music Festival this weekend June 9th - 11th. Sadly, I couldn’t fucking go to SAMF because I am “young, illegal, and lame” (which that right there is a great album title according to Jahan). I am gonna be writing this shit day by day, everything that happened and took place! Here we go!

June 7th, 2017

This was the Wednesday in the week before the epic weekend was to come. This was my last day of school before finals. I was lucky enough to get out of work this day and the following day since 1) prom season was beating my ass (I work at a tuxedo shop), I’ve been working so much to the point where I’ve been having migraines everyday for the past week and a half. Getting out of work gave me time to prepare for Chi and to get any last minute things done…I had a lot of shit to do. I got home from school and I was giving myself a little break before I got up to work on the shit I needed to do. I was chilling on the couch on Twitter and Krewella is having a tweeting spree. Keep in mind- I thought I was being kinda lowkey talking about going to Chi this Friday to the point Krewella didn’t know. My friend, JoJo, texted me one day a couple days ago and basically said “Yo, if Yasmine and Jahan don’t know you are gonna be in Chi, we should like surprise them. Like you should hide behind us (the Travel Krew) and then we would be like ‘Guys, we have a little surprise for u!’ and then you would pop out from behind us!” I was fucking down for this shit, it would cute as fuck! After discussing this, it was kind of a plan to be a surprise. So yeah, I thought I was being lowkey and shit talking about everything on Twitter. I thought if I did tweet anything, Krewella follows me and Yasmine and Jahan follow me, but the odds of them actually seeing me tweets…yeah, I’ll be ok, they probably won’t see anything. So going back to Krewella doing a tweeting spree. I tweet them something that I would always normally tweet, just showing my love and shit. I tweet saying “u guys u guys u guys u guys…… ILY". Then a minute later, they reply saying “love u bb see u FRIDAY!”

Two things were going through my head- 1) Aw yay! They replied back! I feel the love, I love them so much like what the fuck, they are amazing! 2) Alright, how the hell do they fucking know that I am gonna be there on Friday?- I was questioning it so much and freaking the fuck out on Twitter, but hey, I wasn’t complaining. Alright, so after that whole tweeting spree, I got up and went to my room and finished up this 6-8-19 Krew Video Project I put together for Yasmine and Jahan for the next day which was the 7 year anniversary of 6-8-10! I was editing in last minute submissions from the Krew and adding my own intro and outro. Even though I was basically attacking people to send in submissions and extending the deadline from June 1st to the fucking day before I am supposed to send it over to them and asking for maybe a lot in the project prompt, I was able to put this shit together and make something absolutely beautiful and touching for Yasmine and bring my vision to life for this project. I am so fucking proud with everyone who took place in this fucking project. At around 9:21pm, I send the video over to Jeremy, one of the guy’s of Krewella’s Third Brain management team, through email. In the email, I say “here is the 6-8-10 project i made with participation from the krew please show this video to yaz and jahan tomorrow so they can see it for krew day https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PrZb6dTEjFw please let me know what they say or what their feedback is or honestly u can just tell them to tweet me or dm me or something! i can not wait to see them in chicago this friday for the ep release party! thank u so much jeremy for ur help!” Keep in mind that I told him to show it to them TOMORROW THE NEXT DAY, which is the actual 6-8-10 anniversary. After sending it, I am chilling and making dinner, at around 9:37pm, Jahan fucking tweets me saying “omg. just saw the project you put together. biggest smile on my face right now. about to head to rehearsal but ill respond more lataaaa!!” Like what the fuck…not even 20 minutes ago was when I sent the email with the video link and Jahan already watched it and shit. I was beyond conflicted with how she saw it that fast! I was freaking the fuck out and just so overjoyed that she loved it, like mission accomplish for making Jahan smile over this project like aye! I really meant for them to watch it the next day, but I am was complaining she saw it earlier though. Then a minute later, she tweets me again saying “pls tell the rest of the KREW that was involved that they literally made my day. <3 you guys!!!!”

My project I did with the krew fucking made her day, how else can this be any more perfect? I was just fucking satisfied at this point and just damn proud of myself and everyone who was involved, I surely felt the love. Later in the night, I was just checking my email and I get a reply email from Jeremy around 11:59pm saying “Will do! This is awesome :)” Like shit, this whole timing thing is just really fucking me up, but hey this confusion is totally okay I guess! Then, I go to bed.

June 8th, 2017

Happy Krew Day! Happy 6-8-17! Happy 7 Year Anniversary of 6-8-10! My plan for this day:

Go to school and take my chemistry final and refrain from listening to anything from the New World Pt.1 EP

Come home, film my reaction for the EP

Edit and upload the video

Pack for Chi

Go to bed

Fuck the chem final and I am gonna skip to writing from step 2 on my little list of shit to do. So yes, I come home and set up my filming equipment and get to filming. I decided I would listen to the 4 new new songs of New World (Calm Down, TH2C, Fortune ft. Diskord, and Parachute) and not the rest of the songs that have previously came out as singles (Team, Be There, and Love Outta Me) since I have already listened to them. It would just be a waste from to the react to the songs I have already heard and plus, this will keep the video as short as possible. As I am filming, I finished listening to TH2C (this song is such a summer jam, the vibes are just so fun and happy, I fucking loved it), my phone is just blowing up with notifications from Twitter. I grab my phone and look to see what’s up. Fucking Yasmine tweeted at me twice around 3:01pm saying “Em, i’m straight up trying to not cry on this flight to Chi watching this video. my fucking heartttttt. i’m so full of happiness right now” and “is there a tweet thread that everyone involved is on? idk how to even come close to saying thank you for this. i love you all so much”

I read these tweets in front of the camera and was able to record my whole reaction to these tweets for the video. Not only was this video gonna be a reaction to New World, but also a reaction to the tweets from Yasmine about her reaction to the project I put together. I was so happy that I basically almost made Yasmine cry tears of happiness and shit. I satisfied the happiness of Yasmine and Jahan, like mission accomplished. I was beyond overjoyed ok. Alright, moving on. I filmed my reaction to Calm Down next, which was really hard and ironic because I couldn’t calm down when I was trying to listen to Calm Down because Yasmine tweeted me and shit! Calm Down has to be my favorite song from the EP, at least out of the new new songs. The song goes hard and their vocals are fire ok. Then, I listened to Fortune and that song goes a little harder and is definitely a good ass follow up to Beggars with Diskord also and then Parachute, which is just a chill ass song, such happy vibes and it is heart warming in a sense. This EP was just made so damn well and the fact that this was their first major release on this very own independent record label, Mixed Kids Records, is just amazing and I can’t put into work or emotions how fucking proud of them I am. After filming, I got straight to editing the video, also including in my reaction when Yasmine tweeted at me. Around when I was adding the outro to the video, I started my little vlog for the trip. I definitely knew I wanted to vlog this trip because I would be with krew, I was seeing Krewella for the first time in 3+ years, I am traveling by myself to fucking Chicago, the birthplace of Krewella, how else could the circumstances be any more perfect for vlogging? Plus, I have never really vlogged seriously because I’m a pussy when it comes to talking to a camera in public and I wanna keep the memories from this trip as best as possible! Finally, I finished editing and uploaded and shared my reaction video on Twitter with everyone.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_yeMgmwXPdY&t=332s

I was excited for everyone to watch it! I finally took the time to pack and put all things I needed together, especially since I needed to pack light and I was flying by myself for the first time on standby. I thought the weather in Chi would be breezy, cloudy, and humid from what I checked like a week ago, so I fucking pack ripped jeans, a couple shirts, pjs, and underwear. After packing and looking at my flights, I went to bed.

June 9th, 2017

Rise and fucking shine. I wake up to a FaceTime call around 1am from one of my best friends from the krew, Gina. She is drunk and lit as ever. She is telling me all kinds of random things, like “Emily, I love you!”, “I hope you have a great time in Chicago.” “Stay safe.” and more random shit along those lines. Then, I say “Yo, thank you, I love you too. I actually need to wake up now to get ready to leave, so thank you!” Then, her friend grabs her phone saying “Got to go bye!” and abruptly ends the call. I got up and hopped into the shower. I got out of the shower and got changed. While traveling, I was wearing this black lace-up shirt I was going to wear to the venue, leggings, my KREWLIFE crewneck, and my black converse. Then, I did my makeup. I made sure my makeup would literally be bulletproof, so it would last throughout the flights, the show, and other shit. I knew I was probably gonna be meeting Yaz and Jahan for the first time in 3+ years so, I had to look somewhat okay whether it would be before or after their set, and I knew hands down I would be sweating like crazy from their set. So, I beat my face and packed away my makeup and the rest of my toiletries. I put together the rest of my travel documents and shit. Soon enough, it was around 3:30am and my mom, dad, and I left to go to the airport. My flight was departing at around 5:55am. I arrived at the airport around 4am. I checked in, and my mom said bye to me once I got in line for TSA Pre-Check. After going through TSA, I headed to my gate and just sat there waiting, checking on my Delta App whether I could get a seat or not. Finally after waiting for a little, I got my seat, 12C, for this first flight from Philly to Detroit! I boarded my plane and was finally on my way to Chi! I was in a 3-person row and luckily I had the aisle seat and there was just another businessman in the window seat with no one in between us. I just slept and listened the New World on repeat the whole time. Finally, we landed in Detroit. Once I walked off the jet bridge and into the airport, I headed over to my connecting flight’s gate, which luckily was in the same terminal and was several numbers away so I didn’t have to walk too too far. I got to the gate, gate A29 to be exact, and just checked the Delta app on my phone and the airport screens for any seat updates. The app and the screens were telling me two different things and I didn’t know which one was the most accurate one to follow. I was freaking out that I would either not get a seat at all or have the slightest and slimmest chance of getting a seat. I finally grew a pair of balls and went up to the podium and asked the lady what was happening. Luckily, she reassured me that I should be making the flight and that it would be even better if the people ahead of me on the standby list didn’t end up showing up to the gate and that I just had to sit and wait for my name to be called. After waiting very fucking anxiously, I was called up and given my slip with seat 13A on it. I boarded and settled into my seat for this little over an hour flight to Chi. I was in a 3-person row again, but this time, I had the window seat and two businessmen took up the middle and aisle seat, which wasn’t too bad. While taxing to our take off runway, I sent Jojo my arrival information to give her an idea of when and where to pick me up. I was also messaging Seancriag on Snapchat and he was saying, along with Jojo, that I would most likely be meeting up with him at the airport so she could get us at the same time. Again, I slept and listened to New World the whole flight. I woke up and as I opened my eyes, the bright ass blue water of Lake Michigan was right in front of my face. The ripples in the lake was breathtaking. Soon enough, we started our descent and I began to see the amazing coast and city skyline of the beautiful city of Chi!

Finally physically seeing Chi for the first time in over 10 years from the last time I was in the city visiting family and seeing the city for the first time after discovering Krewella was just astounding. I honestly couldn’t believe I was here, and I wasn’t in the city just to be a tourist and visit the city or just see family and/or friends- I was fucking here for one thing and one thing only….KREW! I was just hyped. I bet the businessmen next to me saw me smiling at the window like a fucking freak. I just kept taking in the view as we were landing and before I knew it, the landing gear of the plane touched down on the runway and we were taxing to the gate, gate E16 in terminal 2 to be exact. It was around 9am when we landed. I was texting a lot of people basically announcing to the world “Fucking PhillyKrew has arrived in Chicago, what the fuck is up?!” I was texting Alex in all caps because we were legit both arriving and taxing to out gates at the same times and we were both just freaking out and expressing such explosively happy thoughts that we were finally here! I was texting Jojo where I was and updating her. My plan was to call her up once I got into the airport and was making my way over to where she would get me. As we were arriving at the gate, I knew I was gonna be so fucked for this trip because I just felt the scorching hot heat from the sun through the window. I didn’t know it was gonna be that hot in Chi! Like shit, I fucking packed only jeans and I am arriving in all black wearing a thick ass crewneck! Finally, we made it to the gate and I was walking on the jet bridge just feeling the heat and the excitement running through me. As I am walking from the gate I was arriving at and into the rest of the airport, some random ass person just comes up to me, shoving an iPhone in my face and says “Are you Emily, aka PhillyKrew?” and shit- IT WAS FUCKING SEAN! I have met krew from Twitter in real life before and I haven’t felt that krew meeting and feeling and emotion in a long ass time and feeling that transfer from online friendship to real life friendship was EVERYTHING! When I acknowledged it was him, my fucking jaw legit dropped towards the ground. First thing I said was “Stop!” and he said “You are live from the Travel Krew” and I was like “Are you serious?!” Ok, let’s be real here- I was fucking honored to be featured in real life on the Travel Krew story, like fucking goals of knowing them for a year now aye! The feels were just in the air! We hugged and just started walking and talking. I was so fucking excited and nervous, my heart was beating so damn fast I could feel it in my throat, chest, and stomach ok. I was just talking to him and telling him how close I was to missing this flight because of the seats. Sean was telling me how he arrived at around 7am and he just walked all the way from terminal 1 to terminal 2 from where he arrived to get to my gate just to meet up with me and how he had time to kill. Ugh, just such good ass vibes! I honestly couldn’t be any happier. Finally, he called up Jojo and Paola as we were walking outside so they could get us. We were looking for their black Kia and soon enough, their black Kia rolls up from around the corner with Calm Down blasting with Paola (aka my Ate) literally halfway out of the front seat window recording us. My thoughts in my head- “Holy fuck, there is honestly no other more perfect or epic or insane way to meet krew and pick up krew for the first time, what the fuck yo, my heart is exploding!” Paola got out of the car and Jojo was driving and Paola and I hugged and it was fucking amazing to hug someone from the krew who wasn’t more than 4 inches taller than me; I finally didn’t feel so left out! Ugh, life was perfect! After Sean put his stuff in the trunk, we all climbed into the car and I said “Hey!” to Jojo! We drove off from the airport grounds and began making our way to the hotel the Travel Krew was staying at, the Amber Inn. I finally whipped out my vlogging camera for the first time since I vlogged at home and just updated that I finally met part of the Travel Krew for the first time and that we were making our way to the hotel to prepare for the EP release party. The drive wasn’t bad, we were just having deep conversations while stuck in traffic. We were talking about how I was real and they were real, it was cute as fuck. Finally after driving across town, we made it to the hotel. Once we parked and got out of the car, the first thing I did was hug Jojo. We grabbed our shit and headed up to the room, 304. I felt fucking honored to be walking into the hotel of the Travel Krew because cramming themselves with all of their stuff to see Krewella in hotel rooms was their thing! Once we got in the room, we started preparing for the release party. I met their friend, Brooke, who was already in the room getting ready. I grabbed my flannel and jeans and headed into this small ass closet and changed in there. They were kind of amused because I was able to shove myself in a closet like that because I am just so tiny. I got out of the closet, put in my hazel contacts, and touched up my makeup. Afterwards, I pulled out my camera and began to vlog a little more while waiting to leave. Paola and Sean were the major stars of this portion of the vlog I made. They were dancing, pretending to DJ with this towel Jahan gave them in Cabo and explained the whole story behind it and how they had to get it signed to give to the winner of their contest who won the towel. I made them each give little outfit of the days to show their chosen attire for the release party. I hated vlogging because I am just so fucking awkward and shit, so Paola took the camera for a little bit and did her famous little swipe transition. I just updated the vlog explaining the situation and plan for now. Paola had her krew jersey on the bed and I asked to try it on and she gave me the okay. She is small as fuck like me, so she had the XS in the jersey, which is the smallest size available and I’ve been debating for months now if I should get one with “PHILLYKREW” on the back, but the whole sizing situation was freaking me out and I was very unsure on what to do. I put it on and it was fucking swallowing me and I was swimming in it. Yes, I knew that jerseys should be big on people, but for me, it was a fucking dress and very overwhelming on my body. I was like “Hell no, I honestly can’t get one.” So, that was a little bumming, but it’s okay. Finally after a little bit, our uber arrived at the hotel and we got in and started making our way to Congruent Space. The rest of the Travel Krew was already in the front of the line to save spots for the rest of us. Alex was also texting me saying her and everyone else (aka the OG Krew I like to call us) were in the front of the line as well. All of us the in the uber on our way were just gonna do a little cutsies in the line because we are important krew from Twitter and we have high priorities. In the uber, Sean sat in the front with the driver, Jojo and I were in the first row in the back, and Paola and Brooke were in the very back row. For some reason, the driver didn’t have the air on in the rear and we were all just dying in the back. We repeatedly kept asking to turn the air on, but the drive said it was already on. The backseat console for the air was on rear lock, so we even asked if he could unlock the shit in the back so we could fix it and he was just ignoring us. So we just had to suffer the rest of the ride in the heat. I whipped out my camera and recorded this little rear lock air incident and we were all just making hot, dying, sweaty faces. I updated the vlog that we were on our way to the release party as well. I got a bunch of texts from Corinne and Bianca and they were both freaking out and asking “Holy shit, are you in Chicago?! What the fuck, we are too. WE CAN FINALLY MEET YOU!” and just other really ecstatic texts. I fucking didn’t know they were coming here! I then looked on Snapchat and I saw they legit flew in the previous night! I was excited to meet them and everyone else. Finally after a half hour drive, we arrived just a block away from the release party. We got dropped off and we walked to the venue. We saw the line and we were dropped off from behind the line. Because we had cutsies, we just walked past the rest of the line and no one really gave a shit, which was fantastic. As we were passing the line, I saw a couple of familiar faces in the line. As we made our way to the front of the line, Sean, Jojo, Paola, and Brooke met up with the rest of the Travel Krew and I headed towards my beloved OG Krew fam. There were so many people that I either haven’t met yet at all or haven’t seen in a while! They were standing in a circle talking and me being my little self, I squeezed myself in their circle and was like “Hey!”. Alex was the first person to respond to me and she was like “Oh my gosh, you are finally here!” and we hugged. I began to say “Hey!” to everyone and giving everyone a nice hug. Someone spins me around and it’s fucking Bianca. Bianca was one of the people I’ve known for over 3 years and this was my first time meeting her! She was like “Holy shit, you are Emily. Come here!” and she gave me a really tight hug. She was shocked at how tiny I was, which I found amusing. I just felt the love from everyone, especially from meeting people from the OG Krew for the first time and meeting people from the Chicago Krew and shit. Just such good vibes. Then, I go a little back in the line and the Travel Krew is there. I go up to them and Brie and Deanna came up to me and scream “Hey!” and I finally met them for the first time and I absolutely loved them from meeting them off Twitter and they were tall as fuck! Deanna told me she forgot her gift for me, but I was like “Girl, it is okay!”. I didn’t care for anything else at the moment. I had my big ass loving krew fam around me and I couldn’t ask for anything else to make this any more perfect. Corinne finally came back to the line after going somewhere from down the street and she was like “Girl hey!” and we hugged and met for the first time, she is lowkey my long lost sister. We were all just talking and having a good ass time just waiting. Paola and Jojo got me a blended coffee drink from across the street, because we didn’t really eat much, and this was the first thing I was putting in my stomach since I left home, and it was just scorching outside. We were taking a bunch of pictures and shit too.

I whipped out my camera and made a little update, showed a little bit of everyone in my vlog. Alex spotted a couple of dogs going into the coffee shop across the street and she flipped out and her heart was probably melting because 1) the heat and 2) the dogs. I got her whole reaction to that on camera, which was all cute and funny. As we were waiting, people just kept going in and out of the front door of the venue, locking it as they went through the door. I kept peeping in the door and the place looked very white and clean and small, so it was gonna be very interesting to be in there. We kept seeing Nathan and Jeremy in the door setting up. Sam, the videographer and photographer for the release party, kept coming outside and taking videos of all of us in line, which was really cool. After sweating and waiting for a little, Nathan came outside and told us to line up on the other side of the door. All of us in the front of the line made sure we were in the front still and everyone behind us in the rest of the line just followed us. After waiting for a little more, Nathan finally opened the door and let all of us in. It was weird because we legit just walked into the place. It was announced beforehand that there is free entry if we download the WAV app. The whole release party set would be live streamed on the app for others to see and experience the set who weren’t physically there. I thought that we would just have to show that we downloaded the app in order to get in, but we just walked in without showing anything. I mean I wasn’t complaining, but it was weird. Anyways, we all just walked in and of course, us in the front of the line were the first ones to walk in. I turned on my camera and started recording us walking in. When you first walked in, it was this entry place, kind of like the “lobby” of the place and then you walked in further and there was this set of stairs on the left which led to this room with a projector playing a slideshow of pictures of Yasmine and Jahan from the New World cover art shoot and then you would turn in that room and there was the room that the table and equipment was set up and that was where the set would be. I walked up the stairs and Jahan and Yasmine were there greeting and hugging everyone. I see Jahan first and was like “Oh my god! HI!” and she was like “Hi!” and then we hugged and I have no idea what else she said because I was just numbs in my senses because of how happily overwhelmed I was. I’m pretty sure because I was vlogging, I told Jahan that this was for my YouTube channel and Jahan said “I saw your video! Thank you! It’s amazing!” Anyways, I move to the side and she keeps greeting everyone else. I was still recording and then I finally see Yasmine. I was like “Holy shit.” when I first saw her. She came up to me and was like “Oh my god! Emily!” and I was like “Yazzy!” and gave me a hug, then she hugged Alex right after me and recorded their hug and Yasmine said “It’s so hot!”. So yeah, that happened. It was beyond amazing to have finally seen them, hugged them, and talked to them for a little at least in person for the first time in almost 4 years. I couldn’t believe this was all happening to me and around me. I was just in a dream being there with everyone. After greeting everyone, we all headed into the room where the set would be happening. We all saw their mom and it was my second time seeing her in person and she is just so damn cute. She was waving at us from behind the DJ equipment and table and then came from behind and started talking to a bunch of us. I was too shy to say anything to her to be honest, I would’ve been like “Seriously, thank you for bringing Yasmine and Jahan into the world and raising them to be the most amazing and beautiful and talented human beings in the world!”. Then, all of us just started pouring into this room. The OG Krew and the Travel Krew made sure we all got the very front of the crowd. I swear all of us were dominating the crowd there, like fucking high priority people man! We were all chilling and taking pictures and just preparing for the insanity that was coming for us.

I was recording a little bit for my vlog and updating it. Paola was live streaming to the rest of the krew who wasn’t there and I made a little appearance on there. I got a couple of good shots. I was filming myself, Bianca, and Corinne and Corinne was like “Am I gonna be in your vlog?” and I was like “Yeah, go!”. So, she said to the camera “Aye! What’s good? We’re here with the one and only PhillyKrew. The only PhillyKrew out here! Aye!” I loved when she said this! Here is how my standing position was: I was front middle; Alex, Emma, Milly, Matt, and Jordan were front row up against the table and equipment and I was standing behind them; on my left, there was the OG/Chicago Krew; on my right, there was the Travel Krew. I was surrounded by all of my friends and it was perfect; I was perfectly sandwiched between all of them. Bianca said “Emily, I am gonna lift you up and carry you!” I was like “Shit, are you serious!? Okay, I’ll let you know when!” It was reassuring to know that I could see eye to eye with Yasmine and Jahan during their set at times because I am fucking short. I handed my flannel and bag to Alex to put on the stage where she put her stuff, along with everyone else. Finally, Yasmine and Jahan hopped behind the booth and started talking into the mic and giving a little introduction to the set. They were giving a shout out to Congruent Space and their team for pulling off everything. They were talking about Nathan and how he was part of the reason 6-8-10 even happened and they were talking about their early beginnings. It was a great start to their set. Finally, we opened up with Fortune, which went hard as fuck and everyone loved it. I am not really gonna go into deep depths with their set. It was fucking fire and insanity. Being able to experience seeing them perform and throw down so hard after waiting over 3 years was lowkey life changing and breath taking. Bianca picked me up so many times. I only remember a couple certain songs that she lifted me up for- Beggars, part of Team, and Superstar. Every time she lifted me up, I was making eye contact with Yaz and Jahan. They probably saw me really singing every lyrics when one of their songs was on and I was in the air. I was going hard. Bianca and several other people were able to give either one of the girls their phones and they recorded some epic footage. Speaking of footage, for the first half of the set, I was recording shit from my vlogging camera, but then every time Bianca would lift me up, I would put my camera in my front right pocket of my jeans and it just kept falling out and Jojo kept picking it back up from the ground. I just decided to stop with the camera and I left it on the platform with the rest of my stuff. I kept recording shit on my phone though. Holy shit, every time Bianca lifted me up, Sam kept pointing his camera like right at me, so I thought “Holy shit, is this for the recap video? Oh shit, my sweaty ass face and my body in the air is gonna be on there!” Oh well, same thing happened when the live streams were happening. Every time I would open my phone to record something, I would glance at my notifications and people kept messaging me and tweeting at me that they see me raging my ass off in the live streams. I was lowkey embarrassed and proud at the same time. They dropped too many good songs. Of course, they dropped all of the songs from the EP. They dropped a couple of fire throwbacks, like Killin’ It, Alive (Pegboard Nerds Remix)- which lowkey killed me when they dropped it because that’s my favorite Alive remix-, some remix of Live for the Night which I can not really remember exactly at the top of my head, some remix of Me & U by Cassie which is a throwback my sister and I jam to, they fucking dropped Breathe and gave a whole entire introduction before they dropped it saying this is one of the first trolly songs they ever did and that they only drop it in Chicago and I swear my heart legit dropped through the ground, and they dropped this remix of I Want It That Way. Their set was just ultimate perfection. Holy shit, they brought this little baby husky in and had the pup up there with them, it was precious as fuck to see Yasmine holding a cute pup during their set, like that poor pup’s ears and cuteness overload. Jeremy and Jahan were tossing water bottles to the crowd, which was a blessing and I caught one from Jeremy. During Party Monster, Jahan was doing a little water bottle shower and dropped the bottle which was funny. I have never sweated so damn much in my life. I was holding in that energy and sweat I released during their set since 2014 and being able to unleash all of that was amazing. I was wearing jeans and my jeans…shit, everything I was wearing was just soaked, drenched, and saturated in so much sweat and was sticking to my body. My face and neck was dripping. I was so worried my makeup was gonna be gone by the end of the set. I just felt like this whole thing was the Get Wet Tour and Sweatbox Tour combined! The last song they played and ended the set with was Parachute. It was so nice to close out the set with it, it was so beautiful and the crowd was singing together and when Yasmine and Jahan hugged at the end…I swear everyone in the krew’s heart melted. Such a great moment to remember and to witness, like the two sisters we love and adore just showing their affection and love for each other was beyond precious. Finally, their set ended. They talked about the following day being at Spring Awakening and how they are gonna throw down during their set and how afterwards, they wanted the krew to come hang with them and Yasmine wanted to drink and Jahan wanted to smoke with everyone. They said they were gonna chill after the set for an hour or so and that everyone can get the New World shirts here only in the front. The crowd started dispersing and it was my goal to talk to Yasmine and Jahan, get pictures with each of them and a picture with both of them- this is literally what I’ve been waiting for for years now. I kept asking Alex to help me find them because I was being a pussy and shy. Finally after pointlessly roaming around, Alex guided me to Jahan! We just had a conversation and I have a good chunk of it recorded for my vlog. I was recording at such an awkward angle because I was trying be lowkey about it and not get all up in Jahan’s face. We were talking about a lot of different things. I told her their set was amazing after waiting years to see them. She was like “Oh my gosh. I remember when we first met you. You were so young and a little nugget. You were all quiet wearing your beanie. And now, you are all grown up and a lovely lady!” Fun fact: I didn’t wear a beanie when I first met them, but I was wearing a snapback backwards though. I told her I was recording for my vlog and she told me to get up close shots of her sweat. She was asked if I was going to Spring Awakening. I was like “Yo, I literally can’t go. I’m too young.” She was like “We could honestly try to do something, but like liability because you are young.” She asked how old I was and I was like “16.” and she was like “Oh shit you got like 2 more years, but we have a tour coming up and it’s going to be mostly all ages” and she was just giving me the details on it and everything, but she couldn’t say much. Jahan, Alex, and I were just talking about how sweaty we were, J said her vagina was sweating, like shit, TMI. She was telling me how well put together the krew project I made was and that she loved my krew wall and how it made her smile! I was so happy, I have no other way to describe it in the simplest way. Great fucking talk. I asked her for a picture and she said yeah. Again, I am short, so I didn’t wanna look like a short loser in the picture, so I took a “selfie” with Jahan (I fucking hate that word so I put quotes around it) and then, we didn’t really know that else to do. Alex suggested that Jahan should carry me so, Jahan got low was like “Get on my back” and I was like “Oh shit, what the fuck, is this really happening…”. So, I got on her back and Jahan started doing squats with me on her back, so I just held on for dear life because I was trying not to fall off her and look like a total loser fool (since at the moment, I already felt like a loser) and she just kept going, up and down, up and down. Then finally, she stopped and smiled for the picture Alex took.

Jahan put me down and then we kind of just departed and she went off talking to other krew and I was just trying sink in what the hell just happened. Then, I wanted to talk to Yasmine. Alex tried helping me find her and hey, she was right behind us talking to a bunch of krew. I was like “Alex, how the fuck do I get her attention to talk to her?” and Alex being the funny person she is, she said “ Just fall down.” I said “What? What do you mean?” She said “Just literally trip and fall down right in front her and she will have no other choice, but to get down and help you and talk to you.” I was like “Hell no, I’ll look stupid.” She said “Emily, I’ll push you then.” I said “No, holy shit. I might as well just make myself fall.” Then I imitated falling and said “Ouch oh no!” and we both just laughed. Finally, we got Yasmine’s attention and I started talking to her. I was also vlogging at the weirdest angle with Yazzy. We were just talking about the set and how Bianca was carrying me and Yaz said “You needed to be on someone’s shoulders” because of how fucking short I am. At that moment, I thought to myself “Fuck this, I am being short-shamed by the krew today. I am sad.” Then, we were just talking about how everyone from the krew was here and that nothing like this has really happened when literally all of us were together. I didn’t really talk to Yasmine as much as I did with Jahan. I asked Yasmine for a picture and same fucking deal with the whole short-shaming situation. I took a “seflie” with Yaz and then we also didn’t really know what to do for our picture. Then, here comes Alex again suggesting Yasmine to carry me like how Jahan carried me on her back. Yasmine opens her arms and was like “Come on!” and I was just like “Oh shit, here we go again!” Yasmine was carrying me in her arms and we took our picture.

Yasmine put me down on the ground ever so slightly. Such amazing, yet conflicting moments with Yasmine and Jahan carrying me, like what the fuck just happened?! I was content as can be. Yasmine asked “Are you going to SAMF?” and me being a loser, I said “No, I can’t, I’m young as fuck.” and she was like “Oh shit, yeah! I always think SAMF is still all ages.” I think I mentioned wanting to sneak in somehow, I forget, but she all of a sudden went over to Nathan behind the counter with the shirts and started talking to him. She came back and was like “Ok, here is what we can try to do. We could possibly pull the cousin card on you with Nathan and put you on the guest list, but our guest list is literally exploding, so we will get back to you.” I was in disbelief because I always thought they literally can’t do anything considering my age and that I talked to Jahan and Jeremy about it, with both of them basically saying no. I said “Oh shit, okay!” So that happened, I was trying to not get my hopes up, but I was chilling. Yasmine started making shirts behind the counter, which reminded me that I had to get a shirt for myself and Tiffany since she texted me ahead of time asking to get her one. I recorded a little clip of Yasmine printing the design on the shirt and she said a little message to the Krew for the vlog. Then, I asked for a shirt and they asked what size and I was like “Shit, the smallest size you guys have!” So, I ended up buying a small. Then, Alex asked Yasmine if they were saving a shirt for Tiffany. Yasmine said she didn’t know if they would have any left over. I was like “Yeah, she texted me asking to get her one!” and Yasmine asked me what size. I called up Tiffany and just double checked on the size and then I got Tiffany one. My little shirt mission was over. I asked Alex if she was getting one and she said “I legit brought $20 for this trip and the shirts are $20.” I was like “What? I’ll get you one!”, but she refused. I was like “Girl, alright whatever you say.” As I was standing around the shirts, I was talking with Jojo and Paola. I looked over the counter and saw Nathan and I was like “Paola! We need to get our family photo with Nathan!” She was like “Yes! Get him!” I shouted for his name and called him over to take a picture. Nathan, being averagely tall, was sandwiched between me and Paola. As we were standing taking our picture, I think Jojo was taking our picture and got the attention of Jahan to look and Jahan said “Aww!” So, we smiled and took our picture.

Afterwards, I asked Alex again if I could get her a shirt and she kept refusing. I asked her what size she was and went behind her and looked at the tag of her shirt and made my way over to the counter. I got her a shirt and handed her the shirt. She kept saying I didn’t have to, but I wanted to. I felt good as fuck and generous, especially because she does a lot for the krew and this was the only chance to get the shirts. Yasmine and Jahan made their way over to us and took a huge group picture with some krew. I thought this would be perfect to ask both of them to take a picture with me. I asked them and of course, they said yes. Alex was taking the picture again and surprise, surprise, we didn’t know what to do for the picture. Another suggestion was made for them to both carry me! They both put out their arms and they carried me like I was sitting on this Krewella throne or something. It was cute as fuck. Alex took a bunch of pictures and they came out either really derpy looking or cute. I was so content, yet conflicted because literally every picture I took with them, they were fucking carrying me, like what the fuck was that? But, hey it was creative and I weigh like 100lbs, so why fucking not?

They put me back on the ground and I thanked them for the pictures. They went off and, of course, went on talking to other krew. I was standing around Paola and I whipped out my camera and started updating what was happening. I did a little recap of the set and talking to Yaz and J. I asked Paola if we could take a picture, just because we are related and short!

Then, I got a picture with the Krew Wifeys!

I was beyond satisfied with the pictures I was able to get with everyone. We were all just chilling, talking, and hanging around. Jahan was telling us that they were going to be filming a music video for Fortune and that they were legit going to walking around Chicago, hitting up old spots, and just plain winging it. Jahan’s hair was messy in a bun from the set so she asked Milly to braid her hair in 2 french braids. She sat on the little staircase and we all kinda gathered around and just talked about a bunch of shit, like the EP, the music video, SAMF, and when they were in high school. I told J congrats on Mixed Kids Records. I also was able to ask her this question I’ve been wanting to ask. I asked “Will you guys ever do an acoustic song or cover soon? Because it has been a while!” She said “Oh yes! We would love to do one. It’s like one of the easiest things to do and we love doing it. Definitely sometime soon. We will think about it!” I was excited knowing the fact that they would be willing to do another one. They could probably do an acoustic version to Be There or Parachute or something, which would be amazing. I have always been obsessed when they made acoustic covers and songs in the past. The Alive acoustic version and the Watercolor cover they did with Evan Duffy….ugh those legit melt my heart and when I listen to the Watercolor cover, I straight up cry. So, if they were to do another one, or a couple, it would just complete everything. So, hopefully that shit will be on the way soon. Yeah, we were all just chilling & talking. Finally, the Travel Krew had to go because they had to prepare for & go to SAMF since they got ticket for all 3 days. I was rolling with them so I had to leave as well. I told Alex to hit me up later if she wanted to hang & chill since she wasn’t going to day 1 of Spring Awakening. I said by to Jahan and thank her for everything. I went over to Yasmine and she was coloring and drawing this thing for a fan and I was like “Alright, I am peacing with the Travel Krew. If anything happens with the cousin card, just slide into my DMs! Bye, love you, and thank you for everything!” and she said “Aw shit Em, ok I will definitely slides into your DMs!” Then she gave me another hug and as she said what she said, she did this sliding motion with her hands and body which was cute. I said bye to everyone else and gave hugs to everyone that I could. I walked out of Congruent Space with the Travel Krew and we walked away. We were heading to the CTA to go back to the hotel. I was having this amazing deep ass convo with Deanna, she is so sweet, I literally love her, while we were walking. We were walking on this bridge and below us was just lines of traffic and across the way was the beautiful Chicago skyline.

We all stood there taking in the the view and took pictures, then we continued walking. We got to the station and because we were tourists and weren’t locals, we had issues figuring out how to work the machines to buy passes for the CTA. After figuring shit out for a little while, we took the CTA and had to transfer lines. In between transferring lines, we stopped at this center place that looked like a mall or business building, and when you looked up, it look super trippy. Sean had to go to the restroom and we were all starving. We grabbed food. I grabbed a number 9 from Taco Bell and Brie got something from Taco Bell too. Everyone else grabbed food from various places and we all sat down and just ate. We were discussing the release party. I was seeing everyone’s messages and tweets saying they could see me in the live stream, so I looked at Krewella’s FB live stream and was actually able to spot myself a little bit which was epic. I couldn’t finish my taco since I ate my crunchwrap supreme already, so I gave my taco to Deanna. Finally, we were done eating and took the green line back to the hotel. We got in the hotel and I just sat on the bed just still taking in everything that happened. The girls were getting ready for the festival and Sean and I just sat they sadly watching them because we were gonna be left behind. When they were done getting ready, I took a little group photo of them and I jokingly told Jojo to give me photo credits when she would post it. Sean hopped in the shower and the girls left. Sean came out of the shower and aired out in front of the AC which was hilarious; I even sent a picture to Paola. We were just chilling and talking. Sean told me the whole history and story of how the Travel Krew came to be. The whole story was fascinating and touching. I loved hearing every second of it! We just kept talking about a bunch of random stuff. I FaceTimed Sam Zupko for a little and just told her a little bit about what happened. We were bored as hell and we thought about finding Yasmine and Jahan filming the music video on the streets or getting dinner with other krew that wasn’t at day 1 of Spring Awakening, but nothing happened. Sean told me Thomas and Jenno would be arriving later in the night, so we were kind of just waiting for them and the girls to arrive. Yeah, not much happened in the evening after the release party. Let’s just say I took one hit of shit and felt 1,000x my weight and melted in the bed and passed out and woke up to Thomas being in the room and then passed out and then woke up to the girls arriving and Jojo and Deanna kept checking on me like this child and then they brought chicken and food in the room and smelled the food and I got the spins and puked a couple times and then changed and Deanna put me to bed…Yup, that’s how that day and night ended!

June 10th, 2017

I woke up the next morning with my sister texting me she was arriving soon in Chicago to meet up with me. Everyone woke up and one by one, we all just started taking showers and getting ready for the day. Everyone, but me, was preparing for Spring Awakening since today was the day Krewella would be performing. I took a shower and changed and did my makeup. Paola was making fun of me saying how I was doing my makeup in front of everyone and that it was iconic or something. When I was contouring my nose, she was like “Oh shit! Contour that nose girl! Filipinos don’t have noses!” I laughed so hard. My sister arrived at the hotel room. I was being a bum because I wanted to see krew, but there was no shot. I was asking Alex to keep in touch with Yasmine for me in case anything happened. Jojo, Brooke, Deanna, and Brie were getting ready for the festival still. Jenno, Paola, Thomas, my sister and I headed out and were on our way to Giordano’s for our first deep dish pizza, since that's was Yasmine and Jahan recommended. I got an extra key from Jojo to the hotel room, so that my sister and I could get our stuff later for when we would be checking into our own hotel near Midway Airport. Everyone else at the hotel room would just meet everyone else at the festival. We took the CTA to this Mexican part of the city for pizza. Paola called ahead of time so that they could get the pizza fast when we would arrive at the restaurant. Keep in mind that we weren’t told that we were basically ordering take out. So, while walking from the CTA to the restaurant, I updated my vlog again with that was happening. Paola and I were talking about filipino food and how Jahan and Yasmine would probably like Filipino food and I made a statement that they should go over to Paola’s place and that she would cook them this huge Filipino feast and that I would fly out there just to attend this feast. Finally, we made it to Giordano’s. We all went in and Paola went up to the counter saying we were the ones calling from the phone. We planned on eating in the restaurant, we legit called just to speed up the process of getting our pizza. The guy behind the counter working there, his name was Nick B I think, was saying "Because you called in your order, that is take out so, no dining in!" Even though we weren't from the area & this our fucking first time ordering at this place & we literally didn't know any better, he fucking told us we couldn't eat in the restaurant, despite the fact there were literally 7 empty tables! Paola even told him we would fucking tip them & we would clean up after ourselves. I swear I thought it was because we were all Asian. We got our pizza & walked outside & sat at this bench right on the side of the street & in front of the restaurant & sat there & ate our pizza.

We didn't have any plates so one of us had the balls to go in & ask for plates & we got paper plates. We didn't have a pizza cutter so we had to cut this thick ass pizza with a paper plate & scooped each slice onto our plates. I tried scooping my slice, but it broke, so then I had to grab it with my hands and I ended up grabbing two slices instead and I knew I was fucked because there was so shot I was gonna be able to finish it. We were talking and chilling and eating our pizza, roasting the guy in the restaurant for being an ass. It was all fun. We finished eating and Monica (she was also at the release party) finally met up with us to go to the festival with the Travel Krew. We all started walking to the park where the festival was happening at. As we were approaching the festival, we saw the fencing with big SAMF banners covering it. The closer we got, the closer we go to realizing who was sound checking. We heard a familiar song that we all knew by heart...it was Be There, which meant...fucking Krewella was sound checking as we were walking toward the entrance of SAMF. We were all freaking out. Monica and I were kind of screaming and jumping all around. We kept walking and they started sound checking with Team. We finally made it to the entrance and everyone was waiting around and sitting on the grass or getting in line to get in. We were waiting for everyone else to arrive from the hotel. We sat on the grass and just listen to Krewella sound checking. They switched to Fortune and a bunch of their other songs to sound check. We were all so happy and hyped. We were recording the excitement and them sound checking on our phones and sharing it on social media. I was happy as fuck, I had to admit, but in the long run, I was too depressed and sad that I wasn’t gonna be able to go. Hearing them sound checking and getting a feel for the atmosphere for when they would be playing their actual set really killed me on the inside. I kept saying “It’s fucking worse to be right in the city while SAMF is happening and not being able to see Krewella than to be far away at home from Chi while SAMF is happening and not being able to see Krewella.” It’s like I was so fucking close...shit, I was right at the fucking entrance! But, there was nothing happening for me. I had a feeling Yasmine wouldn’t get back to me in any way, whether it was through Alex or herself in DMs. I was fucking sad. I kept talking to Monica about it and she was just trying to reassure me and make me feel better, but nothing was helping me to be honest. I was in a huge predicament. I could either be the most hopeful and optimistic person ever or be fucking down in the dumps and negative about everything. In there case, I was being positive in the way that I thought Yasmine would end up getting back to me about the cousin card working, then I was being negative in the way that I knew nothing was gonna happen and I wouldn’t be able to go at all, like how it was supposed to be from the beginning. I tried to keep my hopes low- so that I would be used to the fact and already expect nothing was gonna happen or if shit did work out, then my hopes would be risen and I would be so happy. Time went on with listening to them sound check and after a little while, they were done and the rest of the Travel Krew arrived. Brie and I were talking and I was just letting out my sad face feelings and she hugged me and the second she hugged me, I started crying and balling my eyes out. It fucking sucked ass, I just wanted to cry for the whole day. The security guards started yelling at us and told us to either go in line for the festival or to leave and go somewhere else. The rest of them were eating the pizza from earlier so we just went across the street. They ate the pizza and gave whatever they couldn’t finish to some random guy. Finally, they were making their way to the lines. Everyone was already across the street. I able to catch Jojo and I said “Ok, I think this will be the last time you’ll see me. We are just gonna figure out what to do and go back to the hotel room later to get out things and check into our own room. Thank you for everything.” I hugged her and she also reassured me and we said our goodbyes. That was the final second I saw the whole Travel Krew. But as I was walking away going to...some place, I still didn’t know what my sister and I were gonna do, Deanna was walking in my direction and she just got down getting ready. She was on her way to the lines. I was talking to her and said the same thing I said to Jojo and she said “It was amazing finally meeting you for the first time, we will bring you to your first festival, I promise!” Then we hugged and I tried so hard to not cry when we were hugging. We said our final goodbyes and she went on into the festival. I was literally pacing back and forth conflicted with what to do. My sister was giving me bullshit about the situation and it felt like everything she was saying to me was her just blaming me for how I felt, that I shouldn’t have let Yasmine get my hopes up and that I shouldn’t have expected anything. I wanted to leave so bad...leave the festival grounds, leave the city, but me being me, I was still hopeful. We decided to chill around the festival at a Starbucks in case I would get any news. We walking 6 blocks to Starbucks, I got my iced peach green tea, I sat there, and I sat there waiting for nothing. I threw in the towel and we left. While walking to the nearest station, I was getting so pissed at my sister, she was just irritating me and making me feel even worse than I already did. I was crying while walking. Shit, I was a mess. We just took the CTA back to the Travel Krew room. We grabbed our stuff and on our way out, I did that awkward goodbye in the hotel room, like literally saying goodbye to the room itself and the fun memories I had in it, despite the fact I legit stayed there for a day and night. We took the CTA to our hotel, the Sleep Inn near Midway Airport. This hotel I legit paid for myself and I just had a job since this past January and I felt old paying for it and booking it...real talk thought- I was proud of myself, yet I hated this whole “adulting” thing. We checked in and kind of chilled. I was really emo- I didn’t wanna do anything, I didn’t wanna go anywhere, I didn’t wanna see anything or anyone...I was just numb. I felt really shitty and bad for my sister because she literally flew out this day only to keep my company and occupied while everyone else I was in Chi with was at the festival. She wanted to take to see Chicago and explore the city and go to the basic tourist spots, but I really didn’t have it in me.Krewella set was at 5:50pm and I was just waiting for time to pass. My sister took a nap and when she woke up, I was watching the Travel Krew live stream from Instagram or Periscope of Krewella playing their set at SAMF. I was still numb and all sadface at the fact that I was literally a couple miles away from the madness I was watching from my phone. Just to get my mind off all of this and for time to pass for the set to be over so I didn’t have to suffer anymore, we went out to dinner at TGI Friday’s in the lot of the hotels around our hotel. I got boneless buffalo wings because I wanted something small and I didn’t have much of an appetite. We went back to the hotel after eating. My sister got ready for bed and crashed. I was on FaceTime with Sam again and she was helping me cope through my numbness. All of a sudden, I got texts from Corinne saying “come to our hotel tn. we needa kick it w you before you leave” She wanted me to meet her and everyone at her hotel after SAMF. She gave me her hotel information, it was the Comfort Inn near O’Hare Airport. Just from basic knowledge, I knew that my hotel and her hotel were ways apart. I googled directions and uber direction and it was 40minutes away and around $40-$50 for an uber. There was no shot I was gonna be down to pay for that. I suggested that our friend, Kody, would scoop me and we would go to her hotel room together. I texted him and he got back to me saying “Fuck it, I’ll come by and get you.” He told me it was his friend who was driving and after waiting a little, Kody and his friends got me and we were on our way to their hotel. It was an interesting car ride. We got gas across the street from the hotel and of course I paid because I offered since I felt shitty about them getting me, but fuck it really. Like, when the hell will be the next time I’ll be in Chicago with krew. We got into the parking lot of the hotel and literally waited for an hour for them to arrive back from the festival. WE waited and talked and chilled in car. The guys were literally putting their legs out of the door because we were waiting for so long, so long to the point where Kody’s friend had to pee, so he peed in the parking lot right next to the car. We went up their room and we just hung out.

Everyone was so fun. Bianca and I ate this amazing ass cake. There were multiple occasions where we had to quiet down or else we would be getting kicked out. The room was really smokey. They were passing around tequila and they made me take some and it tasted like literal ass and Corinne got a video of me taking it and dying. Lalo was calling me “Philly Cheesesteak”, which was honestly a great nickname. Corinne and I established she was my old Ate and when my sister was texting me to be back at our room at 3am, Corinne told me to text her “My other Ate told me otherwise” which was funny. They were saying “Oh my gosh! I remember when PhillyKrew made it on the scene. You are young and you have been around for a while!”, I felt very satisfied in a way. It was hella fun just hanging with them. We were taking pictures and videos and shit, but then it was time to leave. I knew I was gonna have to pay for take a fucking $40 uber at 3am alone, with probably some creepy ass guy. I asked Bianca to walk be down to the uber. I said bye to everyone and it was hella fun and nice to have hung out with them. Lalo said I was chill for a 16 year old. I hugged everyone and they said “It was so nice to finally meet you. Girl, hit us up when you are in town!” I love them! Bianca walked me down to the lobby and outside barefoot. We talked and shit and I fucking love Bianca. The uber pulled up in and Bianca peeped her head in the window and told the driver to make sure I get to my hotel okay. I hugged her and we said our goodbyes. The car was weird as fuck. I lied about literally everything trying to make myself seem older, I mainly talked about Krewella just to stall and cover shit up. I was texting Bianca the whole time. My sister was freaking the fuck out on the phone. I made it back to the room okay, I took off my makeup and just went straight to bed.

June 11th, 2017

I woke up to my sister telling me to get up and that it was 7am and we had to be in the lobby and have breakfast in time for the shuttle going to Midway Airport at around 7:40am. Our flight was at 9am from Midway to Detroit and then another flight from Detroit to Philly and we would arrive home around 2pm.

Nothing really happened much on the flights. We made both flights. I got some ending footage for my vlog. I was listening to New World on repeat and also wearing my New World shirt from the release party and my KREWLIFE crewneck. My dad got us from the airport. I got home and walked into my room, just looking around and seeing how I felt my room when I left for Chicago. I was just sitting on my bed reminiscing on the moments of happiness and excitement I experienced just a couple days ago leading up to legit one of the BEST days of my life. I was so fucking torn and depressed it was all over. I felt like I had nothing else to look forward to to be honest. Again, I was just in a whole numb situation. I was beyond grateful for and amazing and mesmerized by the trip I just had. It was a fucking dream. I’ve been waiting for this for years now and I just couldn’t believe it was over. It was like I just woke up from a dream...and you had that dream and it went by so fucking fast right in front of you and you can honestly barely remember the deep details of the dream and it felt like it happened so long ago. I was so numb. I began going through the footage I took for my vlog and it was just bad and good all at the same time. Bad because I had to force myself to look back on the amazing memories I just made and that I wanted to relive over and over again. Good because I was feeling all nostalgic and happy and grateful I was able to experience and record all of this. Then, I started editing my vlog. I edited throughout the whole night until I was brain-fried and wanted to crash.

Now back to the present day. It has taken me literally day to fucking finish this whole story, typing it up and adding the right pictures affiliating to whatever I was writing about. I am so fucking grateful for meeting the people I met for the first time, for seeing and reuniting with the people I haven’t seen in a while, for flying safely and excitedly to literally heaven on Earth, for experiencing such an insane set by Krewella for the first time since 2014, for living in the moment and sinking into everything that was happening...just grateful for EVERYTHING. I am so amazed at this part of my life. I was able to escape my reality... my shittiest ass reality that makes me feel so damn, lost, empty, dark, lonely, etc. This reality, this real world, this real life I have...it’s the fucking worst. As much as I wanna enjoy it, I can’t and I haven’t been able to for the past 2, almost 3 years now. But, I had my KREWLIFE. This life, this fantasy, this dream is what I have to escape to, to fall back on when life is pushing me down. I am so grateful, for everything, for everyone. I can get into depths about this and get all mushy about it in another post. If you had made it this far reading this monster of a post, thank you and I will end this soon.

It’s June 21st at 12:21am. I am listening to Parachute and I legit just felt the lyrics “We survive on the memories” and “If I could bottle up this feeling. Dancing on the ceiling. Won't sink when I need it. Don't think just believe it.” so hard...I felt the real emotion and meaning of these lyrics as I am typing this. So fucking relevant to wanting to go back to the release party and this whole trip. I can’t wait for the next time I see Krewella and krew and have a perfect trip or day or night like that again. It is all a vicious cycle when it comes to this part of the KREWLIFE-

Wait for the next chance to see Krewella and be with the krew

Go see Krewella and krew and rage the day/night away and make some crazy, unforgettable memories

Come home from all of the perfect insanity and madness, and feel all depressed it is over and wanting to relive it all

Repeat

#krewella #krewlife #krew #krewellayasmine #krewellajahan #krewella jahan #krewella yasmine #phillykrew #philly krew #newworldpt1 #new world pt 1 #chicago

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Mystery Pearl March Day 2: Dancing

Title: My ambition

Description: It’s been two years since they last saw each other.

Word Count: 2001

Rating: T

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Sheena looked around the music room. She had spent four of her bests years in that room, trying to earn a music degree. She had graduated long ago, but the room still filled her with nostalgia. It was here that she perfected her drumbeat, tried to riff a guitar, and even slapped a base or two. It’s too bad her music career never went anywhere.

Sheena sighed. Delmarva State was never the best university for music, but it was the one she could afford. Unfortunately, after graduation, she couldn’t afford to go anywhere else. She had been stuck in the college town, working the same coffee shop for years. She was surprised she wasn’t running the place yet.

That wasn’t true. She knew why she wasn’t running the place. She had no ambition. Sheena wanted to spend her life having fun, not working behind a counter. She wanted to go to more concerts, meet more people, ride her motorcycle into the sunset, fall in love again!

Love. She hadn’t so much as dated since…

Was that classical music?

The music room was one of several studios in a building just off campus. Most students who weren’t music or theater majors never went there, and most of those students never stayed past their classes. Sheena knew because she was one of the few who did stay. She figured she should just leave well enough alone, leave whatever student was practicing whatever to their own business, but for some reason the music sounded familiar to her. Sheena went into the next-door studio to figure out why.

And there she was. Her Pearl. For the first time in many years, Sheena saw her ex-girlfriend dance. The music was a ballet piece. The only one Pearl ever played for her. Sheena thought Pearl inspired the composer, but Pearl denied it. Looking at her now, Sheena did not doubt at all that Pearl inspired the whole damn style of dance. Her movements were graceful, like a feather flying through the air, and when she landed her toes barely made a sound. It’s like she was weightless. In a sense she was, body being made of light and all.

Sheena had forgotten how beautiful Pearl was when she danced, how absolutely in the zone she was, how she was able to just block everything out accept for the music, which she managed to follow with uncanny accuracy. Sheena was unable to move, unable to tear herself away from Pearl’s performance if she wanted to. She had never seen Pearl fuse with her fellow gems, but in that moment, she wished she a gem herself. It was not an unfamiliar feeling, she had wanted to fuse with Pearl back when they were dating, but to no avail. Sheena wished she could join her, but she didn’t. She knew she would never dance as well as Pearl did.

As the music drew to a close, Pearl’s performance ended as well. It was then that she noticed Sheena in the room. It had been a couple years, and her hair was purple now, but it was definitely Sheena. For a moment, the two locked eyes in silence.

“WOO-HOO! YAY PEARL!!”

Sheena blinked. In awe of Pearl’s dancing, she had not realized that they were not alone in the studio. Applauding Pearl was a guy sitting on the floor, casually dressed in a red shirt, with curly black hair in the shape of a wait a minute.

“Steven Universe?”

The guy turned around to show that he was, in fact, a college-age version of Pearl’s adoptive son. “Oh, my gosh!” he exclaimed as he scrambled over to his guardian’s ex, “Sheena, is that you? I haven’t seen you since you dated Pearl!”

Pearl blushed as she rushed over to Steven and Sheena. “Steven is considering going to college here, and so we came by to tour the place,” Pearl explained when she found her voice.

“This kid is old enough to go to college?” Sheena asked, ruffing Steven’s hair, “No way! Last I saw him, this kid was barely up to my waist!”

“What can I say? I’ve done a lot of growing!” Steven giggled. “Are you going to college here too?”

“Oh no, I used too, but I graduated a few years ago. I live in the area though, my apartment is down elm street.”

Pearl clasped her hands together. “That’s why the highway exit looked familiar! I didn’t recognize it at first because I usually saw it from a motorcycle.”

Sheena giggled.

Steven looked between the couple. “Say,” he said, “you know more about the restaurants around here more than us Sheena, do you think you could show Pearl and I a place with good food?”

“I’d be happy to Steven,” Sheena replied.

“Oh, but wait,” Pearl said, “we have that dinner with the student representative where you’re supposed to talk about tuition.”

“Hmm, this is quite the conundrum!” Steven began backing towards the door. “Well, how about this! I’ll go to the dinner with the representative, ask some questions about tuition, while you and Sheena check out that restaurant!”

“Steven…”

“I’ll be sure to take notes, byeeeeeee!” With that, Steven left the studio.

Pearl sighed. This was not how the weekend was supposed to go.

“Well, glad to see he hasn’t changed much,” Sheena joked.

The two friends found themselves in an Empire City style sub-shop. To Sheena’s surprise, Pearl ordered something to eat as well. “Been eating long?” Sheena asked as they sat down with their sandwiches.

“Hm?” Pearl looked up from her food. “Oh! Well, if Steven is going to be eating here, I have to make sure the food is tasty and nutritious.” She took a bite of her sandwich. As she chewed, a grimace crossed her face. “Well, it is tasty,” she said after swallowing.

Sheena smiled. Same ol’ Pearl. Except for the outfit. Since Sheena had saw her last, Pearl’s outfit had switched from a ballet look with a bow to a more casual look, with a loose tank-top, blue button-down shirt, and what appeared to be mom jeans. “So,” Sheena said, “I like the new outfit.”

“Thanks,” Pearl replied, “I was poofed during a fight with a corrupted gem, and this felt like a good look for me.”

“How is that going by the way? The Crystal Gem work I mean.”

“It’s actually going really good. Steven and Connie negotiated a peace treaty with Homeworld, White Diamond is researching how to permanently reverse corruption. Amethyst got her family to come to earth. The Cluster is stable in its bubble, but since the world hasn’t exploded, you probably knew that one.”

Pearl sighed. “It’s not all good times though,” she continued, “there are still hundreds of corrupted gems around the world. And, every so often, some old Homeworld soldiers will come to earth to ‘Finally destroy the Crystal Gems’ or ‘Reverse the treaty that never should have been’ or something like that. They never get past the beach, but it does get tiring after a while. How about you, how has your life been?”

“Oh, pretty good,” Sheena said, “I’m still working at the coffee-shop on Brooklyn. My apartment’s still a mess, my family keeps in touch. I have significantly less crazy adventures than you do.”

Pearl laughed. “Are you, uh…” Pearl looked at the table. “Are you seeing anyone right now?”

Sheena’s heart skipped a beat. Pearl was asking if she was single. Was she interested in getting back together? Did Sheena even want to get back together?

“No, not really. People flirt with me at work a lot, but the most I get out of them is a big tip.”

“Oh, I see.”

Sheena took a bite of a sandwich.

“I just don’t understand why he even wants to go to college. I’ve taught him all he needs to know for the last twelve years.”

“College isn’t just about learning though, it’s also about the experience. Meeting like-minded people, late-nights studying, doing research papers at the library, going to parties, college is like feeling the real world without being a part of it yet.”

“I guess so.”

“Besides, most jobs require a college degree these days.”

“Humans. I’ll never fully understand your culture.”

“You and me both.”

The couple had returned to Sheena’s apartment complex. Sheena was fine with going back by herself, but Pearl had insisted on seeing her home. Secretly, Sheena had hoped that Pearl would do more than that.

“By the way,” Sheena said, “out of curiosity, why were you dancing earlier?”

“Oh that.” Pearl looked down. “Steven wanted to see how to dance in that studio. I tried to tell him that I’d never been in a studio like that, but he put on the music and I went with it. Honestly, I hadn’t danced like that in a long time, I’m not sure it was any good.”

“I thought it was wonderful.”

As Pearl blushed, Sheena mentally kicked herself. Wonderful? What kind of compliment was that?

The two had finally made it to Sheena’s front door. “I had a good time tonight,” Sheena said.

“Me too,” Pearl replied, “if I’m ever in town again, I’ll be sure to look you up.”

“And hey, if Steven ends up going to Delmarva U., you’re welcome to stay here any time you visit.”

“I might take you up on that.”

Silence fell over the couple. For a moment, neither of them moved and instead just looked into each other’s eyes. They started to move their heads toward each other, lips parted, eyes beginning to close. Time seemed to stop.

Then Sheena turned away.

“I have an early morning tomorrow,” Sheena said as she opened her door, “I should probably get to bed.”

Pearl sighed. “Yeah, Steven’s probably waiting for me too. Have a good night Sheena.”

“You too Pearl.”

Click.

In the safety of her own home, Sheena leaned her head against the door. She thought about the good time she had that night, the good times she had for many nights with Pearl. Two years. It had been two years since she had seen Pearl, and fate had had sent her dancing back into Sheena’s life. Sheena felt like a coward. She ended it with Pearl because she thought it would be too hard. An alien gem with a magic spear and a war against her own alien race? How high maintenance could you get?

But the war was over. Pearl had said so. There was a peace treaty. Every excuse Sheena had told herself had been completely refuted and she was given a second chance, but she still turned away like a coward. In another life, Sheena would have stayed, she would have fought alongside Pearl, she would have been there to protect her, to keep her from poofing. In yet another life, she actually did something with her music degree.

No. This wasn’t any other life. This was Sheena’s life. She couldn’t do much about her degree in this life, but she still wanted to share it with Pearl. She wanted to watch Pearl dance again, to see Pearl fight again, to see Pearl again. She wanted to go on more dates, and cuddle up on the couch, and help her understand humans, and gush over Steven’s accomplishments, and hold her when she cried, and…

Sheena tore open her door to find Pearl still standing on the other side of it.

“I missed you.”

“I missed you too.”

Pearl leapt into Sheena’s arms and attacked her lips with her own. Had Sheena been a gem, they would have fused right then and there. Instead, they were content to try and convey their feelings through their lips and their tongues. They passionately made out for what seemed like hours until Sheena needed air. In reality, it was only a few minutes.

“You know,” Pearl gasped, “if you hadn’t opened that door I think I would have broken it down.”

Sheena smiled. “Wanna try breaking my bed instead?”

#steven universe #mysterypearlweek #mysterypearl week #mystery pearl #day 2 #dancing

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azuretheta · 8 years ago

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The Electric Odyssey: My cross state trip in a Nissan Leaf

On Thursday, April 6th, 2017, my older brother and I traveled from Atlanta, Ga to Destin, Fl for our sister’s wedding ceremony that Friday in my Nissan Leaf. We had a hotel room and everything set up, but we had not properly planned a means to get there. We had planned on getting a rental car, but I was too young for any of the agencies and my brother’s license was outdated on place of residence, so neither of us had any luck. After trying for a couple of hours at a couple different rental car agencies, I jokingly said we could take my electric car. 45 minutes later we were packed and ready to hit the road.

Special Note: If there seems to be any time discrepancies, it’s probably because Georgia is on EST and Alabama and the part of Florida we visited are on CST. I might have also recalled the time incorrectly.

Preparations and Leaving Georgia

Before taking off we downloaded the PlugShare app to our phones and began looking through the different charging stations throughout Georgia, Alabama, and Florida. Not knowing exactly how the app worked, we charted a sketchy course from Atlanta down to Montgomery and then to Destin. Feeling somewhat confident we could do this, we took a quick stop at a nearby dealership to fill the tank up to full before heading out for real. Traveling to the Georgia/Alabama border was actually really easy, if tedious since every 40 minutes to an hour we had to stop somewhere to charge. We encountered no problems at any of the charge stations in Georgia except for one: At the Nissan of Union City the charging station was completely surrounded by parked cars and it took 45 minutes of just sitting there before we could finally get a car moved and be able to start charging. Other than that, we arrived at the Georgia Visitor Center and prepared to make the long trek to Montgomery.

Stuck in Montgomery

It was about 4 PM by the time we left the visitor center, and we were beginning to think we probably wouldn’t arrive in Destin until late that evening. Because of that, my brother went ahead and took a nap while I manned the vehicle into Alabama. This is when some serious issues came into play. First, I was not experienced at driving long distances at all, and Montgomery was 73 miles from the visitor center. Second, something we didn’t really realize until later, our car was carrying a bigger load than usual with the additional person, our luggage, and some various things we brought for the wedding and the beach, which meant we needed more energy to travel. This culminated in the car running out of power on the highway, just 3 miles away from a charging station. We had no back up battery either since those were costly and I never really needed the extra mileage. Stuck with no other choice, we called a tow truck to tow us to the Hilton hotel 3 miles away so we could charge. Even worse, the charger at the location was a J1772, not a CHAdeMO charger we had been using all throughout Georgia, so we had to wait 3 hours for the car to get charged just a little over halfway. Added to that the wait time for the tow truck to show up, we were in Montgomery for a little over 6 hours.

The five to six hour wait really got to us both. I was cursing myself for being overzealous and stupid for passing up a charging station in between Montgomery and the visitor center. Meanwhile, my brother had accidentally sent out a mass text about how we had to be towed when he meant to just send it to our mother, so he was constantly being texted and harassed about how stupid we were being and that we should just turn back around. We walked off to get some dinner, and during that I opened up PlugShare to try and better plan our route only to figure out that we would have to stop at least three more times at J1772 chargers. Not seeing a single fast CHAdeMO charger on the route, I began to discuss with my brother about continuing our travel or to just give up and go home. We talked and argued for a good two and a half hours as calmly as we could manage, mostly because we couldn’t do anything else while the car was charging. Eventually, my brother convinced me that I was overexaggerating how long I thought it would take to charge the car at the next few charging stations. At around 11 PM, we packed up and headed to the next charging station.

Arriving in Destin

The trip to the Nissan dealership in Troy, Al was absolutely no issue, but the slow charging time was depressing, and the thought that we had to do this two more times was excruciating to think about. My brother was able to nap well enough, but the stress and cramped legs made it so I didn’t sleep at all. Seeing that I was tired, my brother manned the car to the next destination, Andalusia, Al. My memory of the travel there is hazy as I drifted in and out of sleep, not able to stay asleep. I do remember though eventually looking out the rear view window and seeing a red Ford truck following us. I thought it a little strange at the time since it was 1 AM and we were using country roads in the middle of nowhere, but I drifted back to sleep. The next time I woke up, I looked back and saw the same truck. Not knowing how long I had been asleep, I put my worries away for the time being and fell back asleep. After the fourth or fifth time of waking up and seeing that car behind us though I became extremely suspicious. From what my brother told me later, that same truck followed behind us through every turn we took for a solid 40 minutes. Eventually, my brother took a turn into a road and quickly made a U-turn, and then drove away out of sight of the Ford. It seemed like the car had tried to also make a U-turn to keep following us but couldn’t turn the bigger, more bulky truck around in time. I never saw the driver’s face because it was dark out, but towards the end I was terrified for my brother’s life and mine.

Luckily, that was the only real threat or obstacle on the last leg of the journey. We managed to drive down to Andalusia, Al, and then to Crestview, Fl without any other incident. With the last charging station down, I drove us into Destin at 10 AM Friday with no issues, glad that the trip was over for now. However, our car troubles wouldn’t stop here as we still needed to travel home.

Starting the Return Trip

We made the wedding just fine and managed to have a little fun that Friday and Saturday. Our family members were laughing at us for doing something so stupid, but otherwise it was a fun get together. On Sunday at 8 AM we packed up and headed out onto the road again, stopping by in Crestview, Fl again to get some electricity. Both me and my brother were dreading the upcoming slow charging stations, but we felt confident we’d make it back to Atlanta without any issues. Having already experienced the trip once, we thought we had a real plan this time around, including making sure to stop in between Montgomery and the Georgia Visitor Center so we wouldn’t be stranded on the highway again.

Of course, the return trip wouldn’t be so easy, and we ran out of gas yet again on our way back to Andalusia, Al. I was at the helm again, and my lack of experience driving long distances showed it’s face again. My brother had gotten us through Alabama because he was extremely good at cruising and keeping speed up in hilly terrain, but I had never attempted to cruise a car before. Halfway through the drive I began to express my concern to my brother, and he tried his best to teach me how to cruise the car. To his credit, he was a pretty good teacher, and by the end I was starting to understand how to cruise. However, I had used up to much electricity at the start, and we ran out of power again two miles from our destination. Fortunately for us, we weren’t on a highway, and before we ran out of power I managed to pull us into a gas station that generously allowed us to charge our vehicle. My brother decided to take over as driver for the rest of the trip just so we could get home, but thankfully he didn’t get angry with me or anything. We charged at the gas station for about 45 minutes with my wall charger and managed enough power to get us into the Nissan dealership in Andalusia. From there we had no issues for a long time and we were able to travel back to Troy and then to Montgomery.

Stranded for a Third Time

By the time we reached Montgomery the slow pace was starting to really get to my brother as it was already reaching 9 PM. I was perfectly happy to wait 2 to 3 hours to get more than enough electricity to arrive at the next destination, but he kept asking if we could just go. By Montgomery his patience had been stretched as far it could go. He was confident he could get use to the next charging station without using too much power. We left Montgomery with slightly less energy than we had at the last two stops, so of course our hubris dictated another problem. This time, I-85, the highway that lead from Montgomery, Al up to Atlanta, Ga was bogged down with traffic due to an accident. The stop and start traffic on the highway prevented my brother from effectively cruising, and once again we ran out of power 4 miles from our destination. Not wanting to have to be towed yet again, especially since it was so late at night, I had convinced my brother to get off the highway when we still had some power. There were no gas stations that we could see at the exit we pulled off of so we had to enter a trailer park and ask a resident if we could borrow their electricity. We were lucky and landed some nice people who let us power our car for 40 minutes. With that, we had enough power to reach the next charging station.

Charging Troubles

After getting the car charged with sufficient excess, we left Alabama behind us and reached the Georgia Visitor Center once again, this time at 4 AM. My brother and I were exhausted by this point from all of the driving, but we were looking forward to the fact that the route back to Atlanta was full of fast CHAdeMO chargers. Of course, the very first one we got to in the visitor center was encountering some sort of error, and because of how the building was constructed we would have to park illegally in the grass to use a wall plug to charge the car. I tried at first to call the service help, but after 20 minutes of sifting through automated responses and static it became evident that we would not be able to access anyone for support until morning. After everything that had happened, being unable to charge at this point made me almost break down into tears. Me and my brother tinkered with the charging station for an hour, trying to figure out if there was any way of getting a charge out of it. We didn’t attempt any electrical work or anything, we just simply messed with the emergency button and the GreenLots app to see if we could get any response. After 15 minutes of messing with the charging station and almost giving up, the charging station began to work. At that moment, when after all the trouble we had gone through something finally worked in our favor, I actually did cry. It was like a small miracle to me, and we managed to get a full charge from this charging station in just under an hour. With that charge we were able to make it up to the next charging station in Nissan of LaGrange, which was also another quick CHAdeMO charger. Our spirits were starting to rise that we would be able to get home before the sun rose.

One Last Hindrance

We were still too far away from home to make it in one charge, so we had to look at the PlugShare map and figure out where exactly we could go. I eventually settled on going back to Nissan of Union City since it was the only place that had a CHAdeMO charger and didn’t require us to stray too far from I-85 to get to. Now, up until this point every single dealership that we had come across didn’t have anything preventing us from using their charging station, so we hoped and assumed that this Nissan would be the same case. Of course, as is our luck, Nissan of Union City had a gate that they closed and there was no way to get to the charger. Our only choice was to drive to a nearby Publix grocery store to use a J1772 slow charger. And to rub salt in the wound, we had to pay to use this charger. By this point my brother was absolutely furious. As we waited on this last, unneeded, painfully slow charger, my brother launched on a tirade insulting the Nissan of Union City. Eventually, the two of us fell asleep in the car and waited the 3 hours necessary to charge the car enough to get home. Still furious and extremely tired, my brother was in no condition to drive, so I took over for the last leg of the road. Finally 10 AM, my brother and I arrived home.

Closing Thoughts

This trip was one of the most boring, tedious, infuriating, and depressing trips I have ever experienced in my life. What was supposed to be a 12 hour trip to and from Destin, Fl turned into a 48 hour trip from hell. However, looking back on it, I honestly can’t get too angry. The car did it’s job and got us there and back when we were unable to rent a car, and aside from $100 spent on towing it in Montgomery and paying $10 at the last charge station we didn’t have to waste money on renting a car and paying for the gasoline. Plus, I gained some really valuable tips on how to properly cruise a car, and during the last leg of the trip home I was actually starting to get good at it. It wasn’t a great, good, or even decent experience, but it’s definitely one I’m somewhat glad I experienced in hindsight and will probably never forget.

#true story #nissan leaf #electric car #roadtrip

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millennialinmanhattan · 8 years ago

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Girls you know you better watch out. Some guys, some guys are only about that thing, that thing, that thing

Sorry I’ve been MIA y’all. I’ve been busy going on terrible dates and getting lied to by stupid fuckboys. I mean, I was gonna write about this hella funny story a coworker told me, how she went through a fat boy phrase in college and one night while she was on top she noticed that the guy kept stretching his arm out and scratching his face. She at first thought he was stretching but then it really started to get to her so she stopped and turned on the light. This MF was eating cake. I LITERALLY COULDN’T MAKE THIS SHIT UP. So my coworker being the down ass chick she is, she went with it, kept going and he fed her cake. #Badass

Anyways back to my dating stories, since I apparently have been getting a lot of “have you updated your blog?” “So what happened with you and diplomat” “Did you go on a date with Mergers & Acquisition”. blah blah blah

Betches, get excited because I just drank glasses or rosé and I’m mad AF. Sit down and put on your seatbelt, because it’s gonna be one hell of a ride, because my love life is f-u-c-k-e-d.

Yes, I went on a date with mergers & acquisition. Just drinks (God forbid he takes a girl out to dinner and drinks). Because he clearly relies on his looks and his $245K paycheck. Yup, I looked that shit up on glassdoor. I mean you have no soul to do that job so you must make a shitton of money. Was he cute? Yeah. Was he intelligent? I mean he tried too hard IMO. Was he cocky? OMG EYE ROLL. He was pretty straight forward and was like I’m not looking for anything serious. So I got the prettiest cocktails and peaced out.

Next fuckboy on the list. Diplomat. I mean I thought we were done. I saw a psychic she told me he wasn’t for me and that he was going to contact me again, and not to let him in because he still won’t know what he wants. I was skeptical.So I was out to dinner with my friend and he freaking facetime calls me. I’m like um that’s weird. He must be dialing the wrong number. My friend Daniella was like no one accidentally facetimes someone. I ignore it. I’m like oh if he wants to talk to me, he’ll text me. The next day he doesn’t call or text. I’m like totes accident. Few days later he has the nerve to text me “Hey”. I’m like umm hi? I’m surprised you’re texting me since we stopped talking. Diplomat was like, don’t be like that. I’m like why are you texting me? He’s like because I want to and missed you? Blurb of our convo:

Diplomat: So your not open to us talking or hanging out occasionally? I’m busy with school and work. I’m not very diligent in my personal relationships. It’s not a reflection on you or how I feel about you.

Me: So you just want to hook up?

Diplomat: No. Just see each other when we can. Is that okay? I’m not too interested in a serious thing, not with my schedule.

You bet your ass I was like, Umm no. You can’t date me and then fucking flake and then text me like 2 weeks later and then act like every thing is okay and then ask if we can casually hook up.

I then changed my mind a week later. I’m like okay we can talk. In my mind I’m like it’s okay he’ll just be an option while I go date other guys. TBH, it’s because he’s a really good kisser and great at cuddling. He’s all excited and is like okay, next Saturday, I’ll take you out to dinner and a movie. I text him Wednesday because I haven’t heard from him for a few days, and was like “hey”, you know super casual. THIS MOTHER FUCKER GOES:

“Hey. Sorry I can’t meet up this weekend. I actually just got back with my ex girlfriend. How’s everything?”

I legit almost broke my new iphone 7. First of all, I never knew his exgf was in the picture. Because literally a week before he was all “Come stay at my apt (in NJ) and we can grab dinner by me. OH was I gonna 3rd wheel with your ex you clearly were talking to? 1 week later you’re with her? Two, you’re gonna text me ‘How’s everything’?! Well it was good until I fucking found out you were a bigger dick than I thought. I thought you were too busy to date. Whatever. OVER IT. I texted him “Oh okay, good luck with everything”... 8 hours later. And you bet your ass I had read receipts on his texts. This clueless asshole texts me back. “You took a long time to respond to me after reading my text”. UMM WHAT? Don’t you have a girlfriend you should be talking to? I mean I got back with my ex after breaking up once. It only lasted 3 months because we constantly fought after that. Soooo good luck with that diplomat. You know what they say, you broke up for a reason.

On to the next... So I matched with this guy on Bumble. He’s a physical therapist who lives in Brooklyn. He was sweet and smart. Girls, let me teach you something valuable about online dating... Pay attention to the type of pictures a guy posts. PT only had selfies/ pictures from the chest up.... Keep this tidbit in mind.

So we talk for a loooonnnggg time. I find out he knows how to tango and salsa. I’m taking classes so I’m like this is perfect, you can go to my classes with me. At one point I’m like are we fucking pen pals now? We talk like ever day for a month. He schedules our first date on a Thursday. He asks if we can do Saturday instead. Friday rolls around he asks if we can reschedule to Tuesday. Umm okay. WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?! So I’m like okay clearly we’re not gonna see each other. So I text him “It seems you are pretty busy now, it seems things aren’t going to work out, best of luck to you”. I mean this text was carefully crafted by 4 of my best friends. I guess in this day and age, we’re used to fuck boys messing around/juggling a schedule of dating 10 girls in like 1 week. But his text completely threw me off guard and made me feel like the biggest asshole.

PT: No it’s just that I take care of my father, he’s sick. So if you could just bare with me. That’d be nice.

Hi, my name is Millennial in Manhattan, and I’m the biggest asshole. So I of course apologized profusely. He agreed to still go out for dinner. So I patiently wait. And wait. He finally asks me to dinner on a Tuesday evening. I meet him for dim sum in Chinatown. I get to the restaurant. He showed up to the restaurant early and tells me he’s sitting down at the first table. I walk in 5 minutes late. I get to the table. He stands up. And no lie, he must be like 5′3″. I’m 5′5″ and I thought I was average height. He’s also larger than the pics he’s sent me, with slightly less hair. I get caught off guard. I don’t want to be rude so I sit through dinner, make convo and ignore the fact that he has small hands that are not proportionate to his arms. Ladies, if a guy on his online dating profile doesn’t show a full body pic, he must be overweight or short. But in all honesty, I did/do really feel really bad for him. He must’ve been self conscious about his height, he was really sweet and was respectful to me. So no, I will not make fun of him because he deserves better than that.

So I had one hell of a week. PT didn’t turn out to the be the guy I thought he was. And Diplomat was well diplomat. Today at work I was like I should prob take a break from dating...

Well that was until I agreed to drinks with a financial wealth advisor from Wells Fargo and some guy who lives in the UWS. Here’s to hoping for more amusing blog posts.

xo,

MiM

#online dating fails #online dating #nyc #manhattan

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allumetterouge · 8 years ago

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I’m still not too sure about this, but right now, there’s little I could care about less. Okay, that’s a total lie and y’all know it Mostly I wondered whether I should put a whole 'story arc' in a collection of ficlets, but this collection did kind of develop a plot anyway, didn't it? :'D - Tell me what you think! Did you like it?

Dead Robins Society

Summary: Jason appears during one of Steph’s lectures only to disappear afterwards

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Steph had yet to decide whether to hit the girls next to her or the cute guy they couldn’t stop talking about. Hitting the guy would’ve probably been easier, since he sat right in front of her, so she really only had to lean forward a little and backhand the hell out of zombie boy. But Jason wasn’t the one disturbing class, the girls were. And the exam was just next week. So it seriously was a tie between hitting the civilians and the trained vigilante.

The deciding factor ended up being zombie boy actually paying attention and even taking notes - Steph would demand to see them later to compare to her own. Not that she was particularly bad in this course, but Jason's way of learning was just on another level altogether. She had seen the memory minutes he'd done for Tim after a particularly boring lecture they'd gotten from Bruce. She had also seen the small booklets that turned up between Damian's school work and envied the kid. If she had anything like this to learn with, school could have actually been fun - or at least easy.

With that thought, she let her own mind drift a little. There was a reason zombie boy was here and it was likely not the lesson itself. So why would he want to meet her? Pulling out her phone, she did what anyone trained by the world's greatest detective would just forget to do: she sent Jason's boyfriend a message.

"how should i kno"

"don't lie timmers"

"u suck"

"that what jason said last night?" Steph grinned, shoving her phone on the table. Knowing Tim, he would now rant - and then come to the point and tell Steph exactly what she wanted to know. The boy might have a genius IQ, but he still was a stupid boy who had a lot of growing up to do.

After a few minutes of actually listening to the lecture, she glanced at her phone again, seeing its screen light up with another message. One of seven as it turned out to be and just as expected, Tim was finally replying to her question.

"he's not so gr8 rn. said u said sth he needs 2 talk about. he's overthinkin imo"

"what did i say?"

There was a pause in which Tim didn't reply and for a second, Steph had to look up to check if he wasn't simultaneously chatting with Jason. But zombie boy was still glued to the lecture. Up front, the professor was already closing his argument, while some of the students behind her started packing their bags. There was a chance Tim was stalling. He could know when the course ended, but Steph didn’t think so. Tim was usually the definition of unlucky and unexpected so it could be. There WAS a chance. He still replied in time.

“it’s about the brat. jay feel like he’s a bad influence”

Stuffing the phone in her bag, Steph made sure to keep her eyes on zombie boy when the lecture finally ended. Jason was… not perfect. Far from it, actually, but Cass had insisted upon talking about him quite a lot. She thought Steph and him had something in common other than their taste in boyfriends and maybe… maybe there was something she could work with.

The last time she had met Jason off the streets, it had been Cass, too, who had arranged it. Cass who had been late so the two of them had to play nice while waiting for her at the bar. It could have been worse, really. Zombie boy had played along when Steph had dealt with some ass who was making a girl uncomfortable and had even walked her home afterward when Cass had finally graced them with her presence. If she wasn’t so damn sure he had also given the girl his number, zombie boy would have levelled up from “crazy creep” to “dangerous dummy”, but with that in mind, he had only made it to “salty stomachache” that night.

Adjusting the bag on her shoulder, she walked the few steps down to where Jason was sitting. He didn’t seem to notice her, packing his things away and ignoring the crowd filing out of the hall.

“Think Timmy writes his reports like his messages only to give B a migraine?”

“I know for a fact that’s just what he does.” He replied, his face slipping into actual surprise for a second. Tim had been right when he theorized about the helmet giving Jason a bad poker face.

“He was such a nice kid when we met. I think you’re rubbing off on him a little too much. Or too often.”

Jason cringed, the tips of his ears turning red. Without looking at her, he stood, taking his rucksack with him. Steph obviously had a talent that was saying the exact wrong thing around Jason. Determined to at least get his notes - if not even get him to talk - she fell in step beside him.

“So, how’s the infant?”

“Sucking on his braces and growing a new tooth.” He slung the rucksack over his shoulder. “What do you want?”

“I could ask you the same thing. Don’t get a guest auditor that often.”

“You want my notes.”

“I want your notes,” Steph agreed. “I also want you to take me to that diner the baby brat is raving about.”

That actually got a smile out of him, which Steph definitely counted as a win. “He’s talking about the waitress, not the food, you know.”

“Doesn’t mean the food’s bad.”

Jason stopped, holding the door open for her and a few other students before walking towards the parking lot. “It’s not.”

“See, here’s the thing: Dami said you pick him up from school and buy him lunch. I want in on that.”

“No, you don’t.”

Steph set her bag down with a huff. The bike Jason had brought was the beat-up thing he took on patrol, too, and not for the first time, Steph wondered about zombie boy’s financial situation. The bats had money, that was no secret, yet Jason’s clothes were always worn; his gear beat-up and scuffed. And Steph was no stranger to patrolling on a budget. For some time, she had depended on Tim’s little presents of de-cel lines and other gear.

“Okay.” Crossing her arms in front of her chest, she glared at the man. Something wasn’t right and if her intuition wasn’t completely out of whack, Tim hadn’t told her everything. “You wanna tell me what this is really about?”

Jason pushed his hands in his pockets, staring at the bike. “I don’t deserve them.”

“Them?” she echoed. His voice had been small, lower than it should have been. Sure, she was accustomed to the strange, warbly sound the voice modulator in his helmet gave the Red Hood but she had heard him talk without it often enough to recognize the understated tone.

He turned to face her with a smile that looked like a crude slash. “You were right,” Jason said. “Do me a favour?”

They talked. She screamed. But Jason was a stubborn ass and they couldn’t make a scene on campus. Which was why he decided to meet her there, of course. That bastard.

Instead of slapping some sense into zombie boy, Steph called an Uber, getting her to the manor as fast as she could. Usually, she rang the bell, usually she greeted Alfred and played nice, but this time, she stormed through the heavy oak doors without waiting for anyone to notice her arrival. The brat would be upstairs in his room by now, making his homework so he could take a nap before he went out on patrol. Usually, Steph would let the kid do just that, but today was different.

“Pack your things,” Steph yelled, throwing the door to Damian’s room open. “We’re getting that asshole back before Tim even realizes his boyfriend’s gone AWOL.”

#Jason Todd #Stephanie Brown #Damian Wayne #s: Dead Robins Society #I'm sorry

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survivorkomnata · 6 years ago

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Episode #5: "my wig is scalped. i am ascending, friends." - Jake

Just realised I forgot to confess about my winner pick yet. I have predicted correctly both the the times I have done this. Looks like this is the only thing I am good at in ORG's so why not keep the trend going. With that said, my winner pick for this season is Zac...wait nooo. I said I am done with playing nice. Gotta give myself a chance , so my winner pick is Karthik. GG

Okay so the swap continues to be great! Basically my relationship with Zach has improved a lot so hopefully he is down to work with me! And it would depend on what he wants if they wanna eliminate Jake or not, I personally don’t care lmao but I think that maybe keeping Jake might help me to have options with the original Kato aswell (who Idc about but as I said I can’t close that door) but anyways I really don’t wanna have to decide yet so I wanna win this challenge more than anything right now.

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We going full crackhead

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not much has changed. we are immune again, and so i'm final 12 (which is the common # for merge, but i anticipate otherwise this game). it's exciting because my main goal right now, bar winning/jury, is just single digits, and i think that's achievable.

on my current tribe, i think i trust karthik the most. i speak to him daily & we have fun conversations, and he likes to mock me which is really fun for me. tim i trust but we have been lacking conversation (though i believe that's due to inactivity opposed to us being weird). i already went through miguel & jake in my last confessional so i'm not going to regurgitate that. i love all 4 of these men so much.

i can't help but think i'm majorly fucking up with my physical side. i really carried in the puzzle immunity, which was a public immunity. this means that other tribes are going to notice me. on top of that, i was in a majority like i deadass could've lost and have been fine (afaik). i sent ally/liam to tribal in the minority (luckily they thrived) & i sent another og-takagi majority to tribal and i lost one. odd, but whatever. i'm just paranoid i think because my biggest thing is skewering others perceptions of me and i think i'm making it much harder by performing exceptional in most challenges.

i'm thriving tho. i lost my trail of thought but... king. love u all. i am talking to a friend about driving n life but there was something i wanted to fucking talk about im STRESESDDDDDD. idk. yeehaw.

oh i remembered - the exile decision. though this wasn't for the complete round, it was so stupid for tim to suggest 'jess' and 'stephen' or something. like???? sister???? either send alyssa so she lacks connection & they boot her or send someone else. idk. it made no sense to weaken the social game of one of our own, but maybe he's playing it odd. regardless, miguel and i spoke in pms about it and we were on the same page (and i made a mistake of saying ''hope they vote alyssa out'' or something similar, which isn't ever my game (to elaborate: i never directly say anything but rather insinuate because im ditzy n dmubb :p)). it was just annoying like maybe i'm overthinking it but ... bye.

im getting like 7th-10th i know it.

I’m ecstatic right now, my tribe won immunity and I have officially broken my Survivor ORG record. It’s also looking like an og Takagi is goi g home tonight which helps as going into merge I want as many og kato as possible. I’m a little wary of Stephen at this point but that’s the game of Survivor. Stephen is a strong player and while I like working with him, I think he needs to be voted out down the road because he is definitely a strong strategic player like me, maybe a stronger one. Right now I need to focus on getting back into the game as I definitely was limited for the past few challenges. It showed in this challenge as I helped my tribe win the challenge. The merge is coming soon and I’m hoping to make the merge and continue showing a new side of myself, like David did in Milennials vs Gen X. Doing this helped David excel in his game and it’s helping me excel in my season of Survivor. I’m pushing myself to see just how far I can go and see if maybe I can win this competition.

So glad we won, tribals are dumb. Would’ve liked to vote out Liam though. Still, can’t wait to be the only Stephen left in the game, Stephen Prime, Stephen Supreme.

It just feels like a repeat of my previous ORG where I make the merge without ever going to tribal council and get voted out soon after. I am not so sure if this is a good thing for me. Its getting a bit boring. I want to play the game, be part of strategy talks, organize a blindside. get blindsided etc etc. These are the fun parts of the game imo and I feel these are about to happen as I am expecting the merge soon. Hope I do not flop like my last game and last for a longer while this time around. Zach seems to like Miguel and Miguel has been feeding a lot of info to Zach. Probably they know each other from the past or something but either way they appear to be close. Zach had been planting seeds in my mind, saying more than once that Miguel seems to be cool and loyal whereas Jake is sketchy. I personally seem to connect better with Jake and feel like he is a better person to work with for me personally. He is a strong competitor and even if he doesnt happen to be the loyal kind of player, he is more of a threat and its likely that he would be targeted later in the game which are the kind of players I need around whereas I find Miguel to be a less threatening player who could slip under the radar and steal your spot at the end. I believe there would have been a push for Jake to go if we had lost but glad that didn't happen coz I do not wish to create any waves yet and cannot afford to go against King Zach's words. Fun fact - Zach has added me in 4 alliances within the past 2 days but none of those are with people in the game :)

Daniel leaving at the last vote has been a big blow to my game, but it wasn't the worst-case scenario. With me and Jess still in I still have my most trusted ally on the tribe. I questioned Alyssa about having the idol since apparently I do that to all of my allies now, but she said she didn't have it. She brought up the possibility that there was only one Hallway idol available for everyone, and while I'm not sure I totally believe that explanation she did admit that she has reached 100.

We came up with a plan last night, where she convinces Isaac that the plan is to flip me and vote Jess out. Assuming Alyssa is loyal to the plan and Isaac buys it, I shouldn't be getting any votes tonight. I'll tell Jess everything when she gets back and hopefully this vote will be 3-1. But even if Alyssa is lying to me, there's a chance Jess might find something in the basement. And if she does, well.... I'll be trying to use it to "both" of our benefits ;)

So woahhhh that double tribal huh!! I did not see either vote out happening. TJ went out on a unanimous vote and Ratboi played an idol into a split vote!!! I wonder what TJ did or failed to do in order to get voted out. Did his enemies end up on the tribe with him? And what about Ratboi. When did he get an idol? Was this from Kato or the basement?? Who split the vote in the first place? I have many questions and not too many answers as of now.

Ok so here is what I concluded so far. TJ, Jake, Alyssa, and Stephen W (The Australian) are one side of the old Kato and the other side was Miguel, Fredrico, Isaac, and Luke.

TJ ended up with Luke in the swap but Stephen W on his side so I am confusion??? Ally and Liam were there as well so idk.

So we win the challenge and I am PUMPED. Our tribe managed to work together and draft some potential questions as well as help one another out during the challenge. I managed to get a score of 7 which is dope!! Oh and our tribe also finished in first place meaning we got to send someone from the losing tribe into the basement.

The losing tribe was Atila 2.0 which consisted of Jess, Alyssa, Isaac, and Stephen Z. Now I initially thought the person going into the basement was immune so I suggested Alyssa because I know that she is aligned with Jake and I wanted to try and work with them at merge potentially. However, once I discovered that the basementee would return I switched up and supported Jake in wanting to send Jess. This was great for me because Jess is my ally and I didnt immediately suggest her so that sheds some weight off my shoulders. But umm I was also kinda rude and I stiff armed Miguel from trying to send Isaac back there. I know that they are aligned so I could not allow that to happen. I made the decision for the tribe and @'d Anna to let her know that the tribe (Aka me....) had decided on Jess. Now this could hurt my game because this could make me seem like I am hard to work with or not willing to compromise but only Miguel would think so and he's one of my targets so lol.

Hopefully at Attila's tribal Isaac goes home and the merge happens so I can slay it.

What isn't going on? That is the real question...

Let's take it back to BEFORE Daniel's departure.

Prior to the vote ( literally 20 minutes before) I went on call with Alyssa and I can't tell if I'm just sipping Paranoid Bitch Juice™ or not.... BUT the first thing she asks me is if I have the idol. I was thrown off because.. 1) Why are you asking me this BEFORE A VOTE...AM I BEING VOTED OFF?. 2) Why do you have a SMILE on your face while asking me this. Anyways.. I've come to the conclusion that she may have an idol and isn't telling me because I want to kill her in this game. The purpose of this call was to warn her that I was actually voting out Isaac so she wouldn't be blindsided. I was trying to sugar coat it. Telling her I was conflicted and that Isaac may or may not have an idol but then the Google Hangouts link was sent and I didn't have enough time to tell her. After this Chaos and Daniel going I was hella shook. Alyssa seemed pissed at me and at that point I had no regrets. An idol was flushed and someone who would potentially come after me was gone. It was a major win/win situation for me personally. Then TJ going on the other tribe.. someone who potentially would have came for me... also: another freaking win.

THEN my night gets turned upside down and I'm summoned to the basement. I can't tell if the other tribe sent me there so I could find something and they LOVE ME or because they wanted to MURDER me in this game. It's still up in the air tbh. Being away from my tribe for a long period of time was scary. I'm kind of just hoping my relationship with both Stephen and Alyssa are solid and we can bo$$ this game up. However, am I afraid of Isaac possibly finding two idols in the basement? yes? do I want to be a paranoid bitch once again in a game? no? am I dying on the inside and thinking it could be me tonight? yes? am I going to drink wine before tribal? basically.

My game plan is simple. I'm going to be straight up with Alyssa and say I'm NOT doing Stephen. She either will vote out Stephen and we tie and we can go to rocks. 50/50 odds. Or she can keep Stephen. That's it. If an idol is played and I'm who they vote out.. I'll probably cry.

I refuse to even look ahead to after this tribal because I'm sort of extremely uncertain.

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Fuck this week, man. I'm so glad that Ally and I went from a minority to a tie at the best, but I'm just not super confident in much right now. Hopefully we just keep winning.

hi i literally don’t have anything to say because nothing has changed since last round

i’m rly glad tj left i liked him but i liked everyone else more... and he VOTED me i’m glad daniel left in the tie on the other tribe cos we never spoke and i’m close to stephen z it’ll be interesting to see how their tribal goes this time with 2-2 tribal lines. i’m excited. i love jess and stephen so i’m rly hoping nothing happens to them that’s p much it. i got nothin. sry.

Sisters this might be the end of the road for me. I hope it’s not because I’m having a blast but this 2-2 fuckshit is annoying. If I go I have a successful idol play to my name and a few iconic one liners, see y’all in All-Stars. Rotten Luck.

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Isaac is voted out in a 3-1 vote.

#episode #escapenow

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livingllz-blog · 7 years ago

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The Story of Us: Part 2

WEEK 5:

This week, you went to colorado for hockey. We went to lunch and hung out the night before you left and I started ignoring your attempts to talk to me in person and just gave one word responses and even BABUSHKA-ed out of your room. You texted me later asking if I were upset w you. In all honesty I was upset w myself since I felt like I was dragging you along and couldn’t decide on how I felt. We talked that night before you left and I told you to keep your options open and maybe meet a girl in colorado (HAHA) bc I realized I couldn’t live w myself if I hurt you. Since I couldn’t decide on how I felt, you suggested we kiss. I honestly got so scared. I didn’t want our first kiss to be awkward and forced. But I also was afraid if I felt nothing in the kiss, it would hurt me or worse, you. I realized it was kinda a mistake and I really should have but by then, you were on your flight to colorado.

That Friday night/Saturday morning I called you. In tears. You were out to dinner w your whole team but made time for me. I cried about a douche that tried to get w me and I was honestly upset he didn’t wanna be friends after I said no. It was stupid but I was drunk and just couldn’t understand the situation. You cared mostly about whether or not he touched me in any way I didn’t want him to and once you found out I was safe and okay, you comforted me in the fact that you would be home soon and everything would be okay. That was enough for me to fall asleep

You returned from colorado saturday afternoon. I was really excited to see you esp after you sent me a snap saying “*winky emoji* tonight” and then never showed. Your excuse? “was tipsy yesterday”

That was the first time you lied to me and cancelled.

WEEK 6:

You suggested we get sushi that night after your business pitch meeting that “shouldn’t take long” and I was beyond excited. I love sushi. But then you had to cancel on dinner bc your meeting went too long and once you were free I wasn’t. But you didn’t even cancel on me did you. No I had to figure it out myself.

That was the second time you cancelled.

But ig it wasn’t that big of a deal bc you asked me to come up that night and somehow I ended up sleeping over again. We had class the next day and from some miscommunication, I ended up walking to class alone. You thought I said something else besides meeting up and when I asked why you didn’t just ask to clarify, you said “cuz actions speak louder than words?” “And what were your actions” “Too just keep laying there with you?”

You even suggested we have a cuddle sesh. The next day, I even met your sister and you bought me bubble tea. I gotta say it was nice. I could see us doing that more in the future.

Then the next night, you invited me to the hockey house. And then last minute you cancelled and said it wouldn’t be fun. I waited the whole night for this party and I was so disappointed. So my roommate (V) and I went to pi kap instead. Then we went to delta sig where I saw your friend (D). We took pictures together and decided to walk back to race together. We were originally gonna meet you on the lawn but it was so cold outside I called and told you we would be waiting on the couch. You immediately got really angry, frantically asking what couch (you assumed the one in my room) but I only meant the couch in the lobby.

This was the first time you got jealous. But not the first time you got salty. The most salty I’ve ever seen you.

The three of us walked to get my roommate from (U) and then we walked to get pizza. I made casual conversation w (D) and you just sulked behind us not talking to anyone. At one point (D) saw someone he knew and when he stopped to talk to them, you pulled my arm and said “let’s go, he’ll catch up later”. At the pizza place, I was looking out the window for (D) to make sure he was coming and you said “whatever. Who care’s where (D) is”. When we left the pizza shop, you didn’t leave w us and when I asked, you said “I wanna stay here”. I had to basically babysit you the entire way home, your mood only lightening up when (D) went back to his room. I got out of the elevator on my floor w my roommate (V) and you reached out to me and said “where are you going?” I said “to my room to eat my pizza?” You replied “maybe I’ll see you later tonight”. I honestly didn’t want to. You were acting so weird all night and I just wanted to eat my pizza and sleep. But then later you texted “so you don’t want to hang out with me?” And I knew it wouldn’t be good if I didn’t come up so I did. When I walked into your room, you had your head in your hands and it sounded like you were crying when we talked. You kept mumbling something about (D) and leaving you to go dance w him. It was so funny bc it obviously wasn’t what I wanted. But you couldn’t see that. You were too blinded by your jealousy. I then tried to put you to bed and you kept throwing salty comments at me but I knew you were drunk and upset so I just let them all slide. You asked me why I wasn’t getting into bed w you when I tucked you in and I told you I wanted to sleep in my bed but you weren’t having it. You were so convinced I was going to leave you for (D) after you went to sleep. HA.

The next night, we had our third talk. And in that, I basically friend zoned you. I didn’t think I could deal w how clingy you were the night before and this was all before we were even dating. I told you I was so busy and I didn’t have enough time for a relationship and that it wouldn’t be fair to you.

WEEK 7:

The next two days after our talk, you were really salty at me. I asked you to go on a walk w me and you said no. I asked you to go to dinner and you said you just left. Finally after you asked to hang not so well “what you up too” *3 mins pass* “fuck it nvm”. We ended up watching stranger things and cuddling, so ig it worked kinda well. We even had a cuddle sesh the next night too, even tho I was sick. I hadn’t eaten anything all day and decided I should at least drink a smoothie but going out into the cold wasn’t a good idea for me so you memorized my order and actually got dressed to walk out into the cold just to get a smoothie for me. My heart swelled. How were you such a good guy. I didn’t think I deserved you and you were so whipped for me.

WEEK 8: where things start going downhill

You said we couldn’t hang out anymore or cuddle bc “I teased you too much”. Okay can I just say, while we were cuddling, I didn’t understand why your dick was OUT OF YOUR PANTS. That’s not a thing!!!

This weekend, we hung out friday night and I fully thought we were gonna sleep together. And when we woke up? I was gonna ask you out. But of course things never happen as they should. You were really salty that night when I said I would go back out to another party, you said “just go. Idk what you’re still doing here” I stayed in w you, for you. And when I was ready for bed, you said I’m gonna sleep here tonight. Even tho there were ppl fucking in your room. Why couldn’t we sleep in my bed? Bc you wanted to sleep in yours. That’s such bullshit.

That is the third time you cancelled. And the worst time of all.

The next night, we met up outside of our building and I thought we were just gonna go up to your room, but instead you took us to the hockey house to play flip cup. I was surprisingly really good. We even had a 1v1 and I beat your ass haha. If I wasn’t already drunk before, I definitely was now. But I still remember everything that happened that night. We played more flip cup and even did some dancing together. I love dancing, I can’t believe it took us 8 weeks to dance together. Can’t say you’re too bad at it either. Also, can I just say leading up to tonight, you have always respected my boundaries and not tried to push me to do anything I didn’t want to. You never forced yourself onto me or kissed me when I didn’t want it. While you’ve made the situations, going the 90%, you ALWAYS waited for me to put in that last 10% when I was ready. That was something I really respected about you. Tonight was kinda the same, while we were dancing, you did try and kiss me but instead I asked what the hell last night was about, you not wanting to sleep w me. You said “can we talk about this later” and I just went on dancing and you moved on. I ended up talking to this guy that went to PSU since my best friend goes there and I was asking him about their parties. I noticed you eyeing us, so I included you into the conversation but if anything that just made you more salty and we left almost immediately after that. On the walk home, I asked you again about last night. For some reason you seemed really hesitant but we pinky promised to tell the whole truth. You said “I don't understand what we are. Normal ppl don’t just cuddle as much as we do and it never leads to anything. We haven’t even had our first kiss yet!” So I kissed you. Under the tree next to the parking lot outside our building. “What I only get one kiss” And I kissed you again.

Honestly I expect a kiss to have fireworks and be amazing. All the other guys I’ve kissed, there has been nothing in the kiss. But with you, I felt something more. Not fireworks and the whole shabang, but I did feel a little spark. Maybe it just needed more time. After all we only knew each other for 8 weeks.

But then as we stood under our building roof, you holding both my hands bc it was cold and it also made it more intimate and dramatic, you said that you needed more from me. You wanted to fuck me. “Don’t use that word tho (fuck), it’s not the only thing I want from you. I also want a relationship”. But I had told you already, I’m not having sex until marriage to which you replied “I know you’re a good Christian girl. But 10 years is a long time. What if it’s in the moment tho? What about true love”

Whoa whoa whoa. What about true love??? We’ve known each other for 8 years. You can’t be serious. You can’t be saying you love me..can you? So I asked you “do you love me?”

“I like you a lot and I feel really comfortable around you”

“I feel comfortable around other ppl but it doesn’t mean I love them. Do you love me? Yes or no”

“Yes I do”

WOW what a truth bomb.

But by the end of the night, it’s agreed that we have differences of opinion and one of us has to decide. There’s no compromise here and I’m not folding on what I believe. So if he truly likes me so much, loves me, he needs to decide he’s not having sex, not having sex w me. He asks for some time to thing about it and I tell him of course, he should think it through. But I’m not worried. Sex is such a little thing. It shouldn’t be a deal breaker, esp if he likes me so much.

The night before thanksgiving break, we’re playing Kings in your room and the card is never have I ever. Your roommate (C) goes “never have I ever waited until marriage”

Ouch. What hurt even more? When someone asked (C) why he said that, he replied “I wanted Liz to drink”

So you told your roommates something extremely private about me, and then they used it against me. That’s fucking messed up.

I talked to you about it the next morning before I left for break and you apologized for him. You said it was never your intention to hurt me and I knew that was the truth. I willingly forgave you.

Throughout thanksgiving break, the time apart makes me realize I like you more and more. I can’t wait for us to talk after break bc then we can finally start going on dates and seeing what the future has in store for us.

#story #girl #drama #boys #college #storytime #crush

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survivor-switzerland · 8 years ago

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Rites of Passage (Pre-Jury)

It is time for the Rites of Passage. Take this time to reflect on your journey in this game as well as the people who left for you four to be where you are now. Right now, we are only releasing pre-jury Rites of Passage. The jury Rites of Passage will be released after the season is over. Please play the audio and enjoy your experience.

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Signing up for this game I knew it was going to be more cutthroat then other seasons (with being voted in and everything). Mentally I just wasn't in a place to rise to the occasion like I wanted. I wish everyone good luck and to have fun. xoxo Steven

Ashley Daisy Trent Steven Ci'ere - sorry I never had opportunity to know any of you but there's always another game!! I think you guys were robbed and should get a third chance but that's just my opinion

Brett I didn't get to meet Steven, but I thought it was rude to vote off the person with the worst finish first. Very Francesca. But the joke's on them, Steven, because you at least advanced your placement! Not everyone here can say that!

Dom Hi I don't really know you at all but you got rocked out of your first season and first boot on this season. That's really ugly and I'm sorry that you went home first boot. You seemed nice though!

Ian I never got to know you which kinda sucks. Your vote out was savage and it served as a testament on how savage people are in this season.

I'd like to thank the hosts for putting together an incredible season and a special thanks to everyone who voted for me and was rooting for me. I'm so sorry to disappoint you. I let you all down but mostly I let myself down. I don't know if I could have done anything differently, I don't know if I could have saved myself. To the few people who I did connect with, I'm rooting for you. Make me proud and do what I couldn't do! (Insert Mari Salty video because it just needs to be there lmao)

Ashley ROBBED KING!!!!! Your time was cut way too short!!!!! You should have slayed this game!!!

Brett My original #1 and partner in crime! I was devastated when he left and I told myself "No one who wrote your name down is going to win this game." I'm glad I could honor him. I hope everyone here gets to know him better because he's one of the most fantastic humans I've ever met.

Dom I've heard wonderful things about you from Brett. You were definitely so robbed and it's so ugly that you got second boot.

Ian I love dogs so you’re good in my book. You were robbed and I have heard nothing but good things from you.

Coming into this game, I wanted to play differently and be a lot more aggressive when it came to decision making. My tribe targeted people I wanted to work with and I didn't like that and when I don't like something I'm not gonna just sit there and eat my rice. I'm not a sheep, I'm a KWEEN. I tried to take a risk by planting seeds in the minority's head about a player having way too much power and control so that we could take them down, but someone screwed that up huh. You could say I was too smart for my own good. I'm so thankful to the hosts for giving my flop a$$ another opportunity to play and to everyone that voted for me on the ballot! <3 P.S. Drew, when are we going on our key lime pie date? :]

Brett My hometown hero! I was bummed our Long Beach hearts weren't paired together on the same tribe.

Dom MY FELLOW ARABIA!!! We didn't get to play in Arabia together so I was really looking forward to playing with you this season. Unfortunately, your tribe voted you out so we didn't get that chance. You're super cool though!

Ian Your vote out had me shook. We talked briefly during the voting of the community and I really liked our short conversation! I wanted to work with you in this game but sadly we weren’t able to.

well i had a nice quick run! honestly these people were sucky, whoever wins is probably gonna be very boring. i wish i could say i had more regrets but i played headstrong, and almost turned things around for me once we swapped. if only i hadn't had a life for a night!

Brett The fact that we weren't swapped together KILLS me. I think the world of him. Congrats on graduating this week, too!

Dom I don't know you but you seemed cool.

Ian I never got the chance to talk to you but I think the shoes you sent during the endurance challenge were nice!

My time in Switzerland was kind of a rollercoaster honestly. I felt like I was at the top of an alliance for a while but something totally out of my control screwed that up for me. I respect everyone's decisions for voting me out. It probably made sense for a lot of your games (except one or two people, who I won't name but... you know who you are. I would've been loyal as fuck). The only thing I still don't understand, is whoever told me I was too paranoid in their voting confessional. I had every right to be paranoid. I was voted out, so clearly there was something to be paranoid about. But anyways. Here I am. I hope whoever the jury votes for is a deserving winner!

Brett Daisy wears lipstick.

Dom Ahhhh daisy I think we were on a tribe together at the start. You definitely got screwed over and I'm so sorry that happened to you. You are such a delight.

Ian Another person I never got the chance to talk to. Your lipstick looks nice though :)

Me, rising from my bed to look at the rest of this season: wait what oh yall are cute i guess hope u had fun tru

Ashley Lily- we didn't have long enough to get to know each other well but you seem cool and maybe we'll get a chance to play in the future!!

Brett Thank you for enouraging my crimes more than anyone here!

Dom Ahhh Lily hi. You were SO robbed. I was looking forward to working with you because you're just such an icon.

Ian You were interesting to talk to. I was shocked that you were voted out. In any case, I loved that time during the selfie challenge where we were kinda the only ones up and you tried staying up until the sunrise and you couldn’t handle it anymore.

the only one-Justin Bieber ft. Chance the rapper.mp3

Ashley Renee - you seemed to be a fierce competitor so I'm sad we didn't get much time to play together. You seem nice and I really hope we have chance to actually work together soon.

Brett I liked her a lot! It just wasn't smart to let her go any further. But the first thing I told her when I met her at swap #2 was that she had a brilliant audition tape and she looked beyond cute in Monte Rosa 2.0's music video. The star of that tribe for sure!

Dom You voted yourself out. ICONIC. You're super sweet and I think you're wonderful!!

Ian I’m writing this last because you deserve an essay, heck even a paragraph for this because you don’t know how sorry I am for voting you out. The moment I saw you in the voting pool I knew I wanted to work with you. The moment you got cast, I knew I really really wanted to work with you. The moment we finally got into a tribe together I was pumped, overjoyed and excited to finally be able to work with you. I picked you first because I wanted the chance to finally re-write our story that had an ending we didn’t want in Bora Bora. The moment we lost that escape room challenge, I knew you were in trouble. We tried figuring something out, and I told you to try and talk to people. However when I woke up the next day, everyone was saying your name. It was gut wrenching having to see people message me that they only heard the name ‘Renee’ on who to vote out. It killed me not contacting you, because I couldn’t do a thing about it. Maybe I could have done something to save you but either way I didn’t do anything to save you. Voting you out was one of the most painful thing I had to do because I essentially was responsible for you being voted out because I picked you on my tribe. During the tribal council call, I don’t know if people noticed but I was really crying at that time or I had just finished crying. I can’t really remember. It’s my fault that you got voted for out and for that I wanna say that I’m deeply sorry and I hope that once this is over we can still chat from time to time.

I’m mostly just bitter about getting the same placement I did on my first season, but at least I didn’t do worse, right? If the 2 who said they couldn’t save me had tried, I would have lived. Also my fuck you was filled with irony, there’s really only hard feelings to one of you, and to that one, I have this:

Ashley Logan - robbed!!!! Stupid swap !!! You should have come back to us!!! At least we avenged you!!! You know you deserve so much more!!! You are the best and I will always look forward to games with you!!

Brett When he got voted out, I just wanted him to STAY. A MINUTE. JUST TAKE. YOUR TIME. THE CLOCK. IS TICKING. If I could describe Logan as one word, it would be "brave." He came to me early in the game with some things he had heard before the game started and he made me promise I would come to my own conclusions about him and I'm glad I held up my end of the deal. Dom OH MY GOD YOU WERE THE MOST ROBBED PREMERGE BOOT. I LITERALLY WAS SO UPSET THAT YOU GOT VOTED OUT!!! YOU AND NICK WERE MY CLOSEST ALLIES I'M SO SORRY THAT PEOPLE ARE UGLY. I HAVE NOTHING BUT LOVE FOR YOU <3 Ian Coming into this game I was scared of you tbh. You literally had connections with almost everyone in the cast. I’m sorry for calling you a “her” or a “mother” on several occasions lol, thanks for taking the time to correct me. Also I’m still waiting on that tarot card reading you were gonna give me.

Okay so. This wasn’t the worst season I’ve ever played but y’all seriously need to up your social games. I had a lot of fun with my OG Monte Rosa mates, but in the end, most of the players of my last tribe made no effort to talk to me, were completely sloppy in their attempts to blindside, and generally killed the vibe for me. I always love making friends in these games, so thanks to the few of you I can say I connected with. But as for the rest of you, good luck with your future ORG careers and I wish you much improvement in the social and subtlety departments (y’all were projecting wanting me gone since day one of that swap let’s be real), and also like. You know, fun :P

Ashley Maximilian- you were amazing!!! I wish we had talked more cause you are talented and seem like a great competitor!! Our time was so great together and sadly the swap led to your vote out but we avenged you!!! I hope to see you in other games!!!

Brett Thank you for editing that music video.

Dom You were really shady to me when we were on the same tribe. When you got screwed over on the tribe swap, I was upset because you're actually super nice and fun.

Ian You were always an enigma in this game. I couldn’t really get a proper read on you, but you were the first person I talked to in the tribe so that’s something hahaha. Good luck with your films!!

#ihopeiseeyounever #rites of passage

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Well, I guess I’m writing this for the second time now :( but I guess I could include my day today...

So last week was a fairly idk stressful week, but I’m feeling much better now! Idk things got figured out and yeah, stress went away. I, also, had a pretty great weekend too. It was especially good, since it was kinda full of surprises in some ways. Nothing was really planned, and it’s kinda cool when nice things happen unexpectedly. :)

Friday, it was a crazy storm day. I was supposed to go to office hours, so I could ask for some help on my lab reports that were due Wednesday before lab. But it was legit raining way too crazy that I didn’t really wanna go. So I emailed my TA and asked if he’ll be possibly free on Tuesday. So my TA is honestly the worst TA i’ve ever had. I legit think that if I had any other ochem lab ta, I’d be doing way way better in this class. Like on the first lab report, there should be some amnesty for certain things. He legit took a point off for having fringes left on the uh lab report paper... The thing is, I’ve legit always turned in with fringes, and it never really mattered since the lab reports are passed back for the students to keep. Like okay, he want fringes off. But it’s the FIRST lab report, can he seriously not write hey no fringes next time, otherwise I’ll have to take off points. Nope, he legit just takes off points -.- like zzz, he grades ridiculously hard and his quizzes are legit way harder than any other TA’s quizzes. So it’s actually ridiculous lol... The thing that upsets me the most is he finally replied to that email I sent him Friday morning BEFORE office hours, Tuesday night... It took him a whole 5 days+ to finally reply to my email, and when he did reply it was too late lol. He was like, can you ask the questions after the lab tmrw? I was like ??? in my head, since I legit wanted office hours to get help for the lab report that was due BEFORE the lab. So I had 0 questions for after lab today lol. I still don’t know how it took him so long to reply to his emails. Like he could have checked it during his office hours, or idk even on Tuesday. Like it’s his school email too and he’s a grad student/TA. Like pretty sure he gets emails... No clue how he only checks or replys Tuesday night before my lab... -.- Anyways, Friday was kinda idk just a day. I ended up driving home in the pouring rain, and the trip took nearly 5 hours... The drive is normally 2 hours - 2 hours and 30 minutes maybe. But it took 5 hours, because of the rain. Since cars would break down, ppl would get into accidents, and you naturally have to drive slower in the rain. But yeah, the traffic was actually insane, and I understand since it’s some heavy heavy rain. But it was really really exhausting being stuck in traffic alone in a car, stop and go, for hours... ._. I was so tired that I ate dinner and immediately knocked out after I got home. So I didn’t really do anything Friday.

But Saturday was hmhm a pretty good day actually. So I woke up late and I didn’t really do anything on Saturday. Since my friend Fyona was busy-ish on Saturday, and I didnt really make any plans with people. Then it was around 5ish and Jia randomly snapchatted me and asked me if I wanted to eat with her. So I was like yeee, and chose raising canes. She was down and drove and pick me up! It’s nice being driven, since honestly I drive my friends most of the time, and I rarely rarely get driven around :( So it was very nice of her to drive me! When she first saw me get into her car, she was like woahh Theo you lost weight! I was like yesss, I’ve been really good about my diet~ and she was really impressed like wowow. Haha, idk it’s cool when ppl notice when you put in hard work! I’ve been pretty good about my diet for weeks now and have lost weight! :D #KawaiiTheoAgain? Anyways, it was just cool talking to her and catching up on life in general. We ate at raising canes, and then went to Cafe Maji for drinks and to just hang out for a bit longer. I ordered a thai tea latte, then a bit later Jia was like ooh u ordered taro? I was like ?? nono, I ordered thai tea! She was like ooh I thought u said taro. Then the waitress brings out taro latte o.o I was like huh... I guess I did~ I suppose i was reading thai tea latte and somehow said taro outloud, which was below thai tea in the menu. But it was fine, and I finished the taro latte and it was alright. Just surprising that idk I ordered something else and didn’t even know! Uhh, idk how the convo came up exactly, but I think talking about vacations to places. She wanted to like go to Japan, or like SF trip, or idk. I was like yoo, u can just airbnb with friends and split the cost and it’s not bad. She surprisingly never heard of airbnb, so I explained and told her it’s fairly cool haha. She was like wowow, and thanked me for sharing it with her. She was like huh, you know I learn something new each time I hang out with you. I realized that it was kinda true, every time I see her, somehow she ends up like learning about something new. I think this is pretty cool actually, since idk I don’t intentionally try to do it. But I do like sharing cool facts or sharing about my hobbies/passion with ppl, and I think it’s kinda cool learning something new :D. She enjoys it lol and I realized I got my friend Brent into fashion nowadays! He’s mostly into sneakers rn, but yeahhh. Idk I like getting ppl into new things :) I guess I have a wide range of interests and hobbies that I have quite a bit to share? But anyways, she drove me home, and it was a nice idk hangout with my friend Jia. She even said she’ll make plans one of these days to drive up to SB and hang out! I was like woo :) Then I went home and kinda just read chinese novels until I late at night, since haha.

The next day was a pretty adventurous day o.o and full of idk surprises. I’m also a very weak boy :( But uh to begin, I woke up at like 10ish and was sleepy. Since I was meeting up with Fyona at 11 to do a laundromat shoot with her. She was very very rushy, and was like yoo get here at 11. Since her mom is fairly strict and doesn’t like her hanging out, so she lied and said she had to go study at 11, so I had to be there at 11. I got there at like 10:58 and she was like, oh my mom is making me help her cook, and then she had to wait for her mom to leave until she could leave. But then she still needed to do makeup and etc, so I had to wait outside alone in the parking lot for legit 50 minutes nearly T_T I mean, I didn’t mind, since I was actually just chilling on my phone and was content. But yee, I had to roast her a bit for that doe. She was like haha you could have napped or slept longer, since I didn’t even get out till 11:50. So I called her a monster for rushing me and how she was super adamant about 11 AM, only to make me wait outside alone for 50 mins. But yeee, it was silly, and then I drove us to the laundromat. But it was too crowded to shoot actually. Like Fyona and I don’t mind shooting in crowded locations. But if we shot there, it would just inconvenience ppl, and we’re not big on dat. So we decided to just do the shoot another day. So we went to go eat, and then she had a shoot schedule at 1:30ish. She asked me to come along, and it was nearby at huntington beach pier. So I went along and while we were walking around, we randomly met a popular photography iger that we both follow! I was like huh that dood kinda looks like dfreske (guy was carrying a camera too), and it turns out to be him! Wowow, we said hi and said we’re fans of his, and yeah :) it was cool. Then we met up with uh the photographer that Fyona was shooting with. The dude was hmhm alright, I think the photos came out decently well, but he was fairly quiet and didn’t do too much directing or anything, and yeah. Around this time while the shoot was on going, Catherine texted me out of the blue, and was like wutt you’re in the oc area? Are you free? I was like, oh ye, I am, and she was like oh come hang with cole + these uh 3 friends of hers. Cole is a photographer that I met through Hope and Catherine previously and he’s a pretty nice dude. But yeah, I legit haven’t talked to Catherine since like winter break lol. Uhh after the shoot was over, it was almost 3, and Fyona had to be home by 3. Fyona tried to push it back to 4, so she could come hang with Catherina and I, but she couldn’t. So I had nothing better to do, so I head over and met up with them. They already finished shooting, so we met up at a mcd and chilled. It was cole, some girl, and this guy name Adam, and Catherine ofc. Cole and the girl had to go study math not too long after, so they left. But yeah, Catherine was like, ooh we can hang at her place, so we all head over to Catherine’s place (adam, cat, and I). Adam turned out to be a pretty nice dude, he’s into streetwear a bit, and plays overwatch. They all went to the same school at Catherine, so that’s how they know each other. Catherine told me that her mom and grandma occasionally asks where I’ve been lol, since I used to go over to her house quite frequently over winter break. When we got to her house, I said hi to her grandma, and she was surprised to see me lol. Also met her mom a bit later and she was like ooh you’re back home. Idk I think it’s kinda cool that they like me? Idk why they do, since I don’t really do anything lol. But yeah :D wooo! Anyways, we hung out and watched supernatural (meh tv show) at catherine’s living room. Then we decided to head over to south coast plaza, since nothing better to do. Walked around and it was cool. Stopped by the Saint Laurent store, but I was dressed poorly and didn’t want to go in, but Adam did haha. Shortly after, all the stores were closing and it was only like 6:30, but I guess it’s a Sunday. We head over to a thrift store nearby just for fun idk. Didn’t buy anything, but Catherine randomly met up/saw one of her friends, and they were like omg. They made me take a pic of them, and I used my iphone 7 portrait mode and they were like wowow lit. The girl left, and then Catherine, Adam, and I decided to go grab boba + ice cream at some boba place in garden grove. I’ve been there before once with Calvin, and the place is okie. It was getting close to 8:30 and Catherine had to go home. I was gonna go meet up with my buddy Brent, who came to the oc area to hang out. He also was hanging out with his gf, since uh she was staying at her roommate Shannie’s place in Laguna Beach for the 3 day weekend for fun. So he figured he’ll come down to hang with me and elizabeth/shannie. So I was driving Adam and Catherine back, and Catherine’s mom told her to be home by like 8:30ish or whatever. So I was like ooh, I can drop you off first, then Adam. But she was like oh it’d be easier for u to drop off adam, and then bring me home. I didn’t really mind the order, since they’re both the same distance regardless and nearby. Adam and I insisted on dropping Catherine off home first, since she did have a curfew and didn’t wanna make her get in trouble with her mom. So when I was dropping her off, she was like, ‘you’re gonna come to my place after u drop off adam right?’ I was like ???? what in my head O_O.. Since I was gonna go have a nice dinner with buddy Brent. Then she pulled the idk sympathy/guilt trip card. She was like, ‘oh you’re leaving tomorrow, and haven’t posted snapsfromtheo in a while. also idk if i’ll be able to make it to lunch tomorrow too’. She suggested lunch the next day, before I leave. So uhh, idk ;-; i’m a weak boy and couldn’t say no after she said all that... I had to text brent and was like T_T sorry I can’t make it ahhh, and explained why. Elizabeth and brent were fine for it and encouraged me to go to cat’s house... I was like lol... But yeah, went over to her place after dropping off Adam. Honestly it wasn’t anything eventful. We sat fairly close in her living room couch, watched supernatural, and made small conversation here and there. Then it was like 11ish and I went home afterwards. Idk it was okie and not bad, but I kinda would have rather ate dinner with my buddy brent and elizabeth. But yeah, Sunday was still a pretty surprising day. Hung out with Fyona, met popular ig photographer, randomly ended up hanging out with Catherine, got guilt tripped, and didn’t hang out with Brent/Elizabeth. But had a good day nevertheless!

Monday was still a fairly interesting day as well. So I woke up, and then around like 1ish, picked up Catherine, and we decided to get ramen. I chose kitakata ramen, since she never been there before haha. There was quite a wait when we got there like 40 mins. So we decided to stop by the camp or whatever, which is nearby Kitakata. The camp is like a small food + shopping area, with a unique design. It was kinda cool to walk around, and then uh Catherine made me take another photo of her with my iPhone 7 portrait mode haha. It was kinda nice hanging out with her, and then we made it back in time before we got called to come inside kitakata. She turned out to like kitakata quite a bit, and agrees it’s better than shin sen gumi haha. While we were eating, she made an instagram post and uploaded the iphone 7 photo I took of her that day, and had a very nice caption about me... ;-; I was like nooo, don’t give me affection, I am weak boy in my head. But yeah, while we were eating, she roasted me a bit for not telling her that I was back in the oc area, but I was like I casually snapchatted it tho! She was like wowow i had to find out from Fyona’s snapchat story sad. So now I have to tell her the next time I’m heading back. I dropped her off and got a big hug, and then I headed off to pick up Fyona. For Catherine, it was definitely nice seeing her and hanging out with her again after not seeing her in a while. She oddly was super nice and made a lot of idk effort/took the initiative to hang out! I guess I’ve kinda grown out of my crush on her, and not really interested anymore. But it was nice hanging out with her as friends and would prob hang out with her again if I go home for the weekend. Fyona wanted to hang out before I left, and was free around like 2ish. But I was still with cat until 3, but fyona nice girl and waited till 3 to hang out with me. Then we went to ikea, since she wanted to. We got ikea food, sigh I ate again, and idk how or why I did. But yeah, ikea food is honestly not that bad considering the price. I’ve eaten their ice cream/hot dog before, but monday I ate their other food, and it’s not bad considering the price. It was cool walking around and chilling with Fyona, and then it was like 5 so I had to drop Fyona off, then it was time to head back to SB. I left for SB around rush hour, but surprisingly there was no traffic at all! O_O I was so surprised... Like idk why, since shouldn’t national holidays normally have more ppl free and driving around rush hour? But yeah, even when passing LA, there was no traffic and it wasn’t even raining or anything... I got back to SB fairly quickly, but I was kinda tired after the short 2 hour drive. Idk I guess I don’t go home as often as I used to, so I don’t drive long distances frequently anymore, so it kinda burns me out nowadays haha. Oh well. But got back at night, rested for a bit, then had to do my history homework and math homework, so I stayed up a bit late. It was nice sleeping in my room in SB again, since idk used to my pillow setup at SB lol.

Tuesday and Wednesday has been ughhh. So Tuesday, I slept late on monday doing homework, but I had to wake up early for my 8 am history section. It was raining as well at 8 am, so I had to go to class in the cold rain at 8 am T_T. Then after, my friend brent came over to get lunch and hang out for a bit. Then went to 4 o’clock class and got back. Then my 2nd pair of yeezys came! So there’s quite a story behind this, but I’m lazy to write it all out. But brent and i supposed to cop yeezys together during the drop. He fell asleep at like 3 am, and I did wake him up by calling him, and then he went back to sleep and asked me to get his size. I did, but I didn’t tell him I did, since Idk if he deserved it. It’s like waiting in a long concert ticket line to get concert tickets at 3 am, and your friend who’s waiting in line with you is tired and goes home and asks for u to stay up and try to get their ticket. it’s like uhhh, if I put in all this work, and you didn’t at least wait up with me/tried with me, do you deserve it still? But yeah, I ended up being nice and sold him the yeezys for retail. He was very very surprised and very grateful, and it was like a nice surprise gift. Since he did want the pair, but was sad he didn’t get it since he fell asleep. But yeah, he promised to treat me out to a lavish dinner one of these days to make it up for me and was super happy. Then he left, and Tuesday night began. I had 2 long long lab reports due the next day on Wednesday AND I had a midterm for greek myth. I didn’t really study for greek myth, since class is fairly easy, but still. I legit pulled an all nighter with my friend Kristy, and we both finally finished the two long lab reports at like 10 AM lol... So I was EXHAUSTED. I went to class to take my midterm and I think I did pretty well on it, maybe an A. But I was sleepy af and just wanted to sleep sigh... Then I stayed up and then finished up lab report completely + did prelab, and then studied for the lab quiz that’ll happen during lab. So yeah did that, went to lab, turned everything in, took quiz, and the experiment was kinda long and lame. But I’m finally free! The rest of the week isn’t too bad, besides the fact that I have to study for my math midterm on Tuesday. But ughh, I’m basically ready to pass out, since I legit haven’t slept in so long lol... Long long day, but yeah that was my kinda adventurous weekend, and long Tuesday night and Wednesday. Tomorrow should be not bad and smash tournie to go to! So woo, hopefully this weekend will be great too~

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